Am I asexual or just like too stupid to understand dating and more
I, 20, woman, never dated someone. I have kissed and somewhat flirted with people of both gender, but mostly under the influence of alcohol.
I am wondering whether or not I am asexual. I am sorry if my question is stupid or not very interesting.
I have never felt the real want to date or kiss or have sexual relationship with someone.
I have kissed someone today when I was drunk and was counting the second until it ended and making excuses not to do it again. It is just something I never enjoyed I guess ?
Like sometimes I am lonely and wish to be ''normal'' and in a relationship where I could feel these types of things but do not ? Idk how to explain clearly.
I figured that I could not really make the statement that I am or am not asexual since I am a virgin but honestly I don't really want to be that naked and intimate with people ?Like it is probably immature to say but I don't get the point of it ? It just seems awkward at best, eyes contact, faking it, and just weird positions, does not seem that enjoyable to me, just long and boring at best.
I am wondering whether it is because of trauma because I was raised under the purity culture like a lot ? But I just don't get the point and what the social rules are about this subject and I am not that interested? Idk please could someone enlight me ? (Sorry English is not my first language)