u/Rogue_nerd42

So I’m 5 weeks 4 days into my second pregnancy.

My first was three years ago and I didn’t even realize I was pregnant until I was nearly ten days late the first time. I remember a gnawing feeling in my stomach that I thought was pure anxiety and fear that I’m coming to realize is just part of being pregnant.

My pregnancy time around is so different. I FEEL pregnant. When I sit to go to the bathroom it reminds me of the second trimester pushing awkwardly on my bladder. When I lay on my back I feel that pressure of my uterus (well I assume my uterus). There is no pain. Just way more sensation of feeling pregnant than I had my first go around. I don’t know if it’s just awareness or what.

So question: For those who are second or third or more times mamas, does this make sense to you? Especially so early on? I feel like I’m 12 weeks not barely 6. Is this just being more aware? Or is your body more sensitive? I had a c-section for my first if that matters. Part of my skin still has no feeling around the incision lol.

So I’m 41 and have a two year old at home (27ish months). I took a test last week and it was positive. My first was a surprise but this one I was trying for actively. No IVF or anything. Just using ovulation strips to guesstimate ovulation and time things.

Last week I got a positive test at 9 dpo. It’s now 16 dpo and honestly the lines look great. My hcg at 12 dpo was 138 (no second day was ordered). But every small twinge or cramping I’m worried I will miscarry. I’ve done this before. You’d think I’d be able to logic my way out of the fear, but I can’t seem to do it.

I think I just needed to find a place where I could chat about it with people who might understand. It’s early so we haven’t told hardly anyone (I think 5 weeks) My husband is very supportive but obviously has no idea what being pregnant feels like. And on top of that he doesn’t really know the statistics behind having a baby when you’re older. He does his best to be positive and supportive, but to him I’m doing a lot of over-worrying.

So hoping this is a place to kinda put those fears out into the universe and get support from those who are going through it or hope to go through it too.