I blocked my mom's email and phone today
She has not once ever owned up the abuse she heaped upon me as a kid. I'm late diagnosed Autistic, and as part of the processing of that reality, a lot of stuff has fallen into place in my childhood.
The reality is she needed me as a prop to show how good she was. The list is long, but one example would be how I'd be elbowed in the ribs as a kid/teen until I got up to bear my testimony on fast Sunday.
She's not once admitted ANYTHING in my upbringing was problematic. I don't think she's capable of doing so at this point. She turns 70 this year, and still talks to me and my siblings like we are children.
I know she has her own shit from an abusive childhood to deal with, and until then simply can't compute that she did anything harmful to me.
I will not be attending her funeral.