I get annoying when I get comfortable
It always seems to happen that whatever group I find where I feel comfortable enough to be myself, I end up annoying at least one person. I've already done my share of self reflecting and I don't wish to beat myself up over stuff I'm still improving on. A lot of life is just trial and error.
I guess what I'm stuck on is the nature of friendships. Are your friends really good friends if you have to water yourself down just to be acceptable to them? How much of the onus of being socially acceptable falls on ourselves in friendships? It's one thing to be yourself, but if you're an unapologetic idiot who pushes good people away because of your anti-social and cringy behavior, there needs to be some sort of way to reconcile your own authentic personality with being someone people want to be around.
I don't have the answers, and it makes me anxious to be myself because I don't want to push away people who I care about.