u/Sad-Host-8403

Hi love. I miss u so much. I wake up missing you. I wish things were different. I would have given you anything but honestly I don’t think we’d workout in the long run cause of your long list of lovers. I won’t ever compete or keep up. Maybe things are this way for the best. I hope I grow to forget to miss you tho I highly doubt it. I’ll always love u maybe? Things that would’ve given me ick, I now find cute when you do it. Cannot for the life of mine believe you were ever a part of my life. Still can’t listen to certain songs. There is something gut wrenching but also beautiful about loving something or in this case someone you can’t have all to yourself. Won’t catch me talking to u like this personally. I love u m. so effing much. <3

I miss you so much. So much to the point I wish I sat at home doing nothing in May instead of whatever else that happened. You were so different than the others, yet you left just like they did. I felt like I had my someone the entirety of the whole thing. Thing cause idk how else to refer it as. You came to me bout everything. You made me feel special. You were always just there. You put up with a lot from me when you really didn’t have to. You were and always will be special to me. I don’t know what is going to happen but i know despite everything i love you for who you are. I hope whoever you choose to be happy with makes you happy but also sits with when you feel low. Despite everything I couldn’t bring myself to hate you. I’ll always maybe love you i think? Love is a strong word though. We sometimes tend to like things we can’t have.