This is the third post for you. You might read this or not. Idk. The amount of pain when i text u realizing i wont get to be with you even though we like each other is sad indeed. But it’s alright maybe it’s for the best. I love you forever.
Hi love. I miss u so much. I wake up missing you. I wish things were different. I would have given you anything but honestly I don’t think we’d workout in the long run cause of your long list of lovers. I won’t ever compete or keep up. Maybe things are this way for the best. I hope I grow to forget to miss you tho I highly doubt it. I’ll always love u maybe? Things that would’ve given me ick, I now find cute when you do it. Cannot for the life of mine believe you were ever a part of my life. Still can’t listen to certain songs. There is something gut wrenching but also beautiful about loving something or in this case someone you can’t have all to yourself. Won’t catch me talking to u like this personally. I love u m. so effing much. <3
I miss you a lot. I hope i see u again. Till then stay happy and keep that smile on yo face forever.
Hahaha! Very Funny! I didn't know you had a twisted mind. So you have in you ha, natawa ako dun sa last part mo
So what's your point?
Z
Ever since I have met you D, you always been kind and earnest. Sometimes too much that I’ll confuse it for attraction. I think of you often, trying to replay events and wanting to change some conversations to make myself seem better than what I am.
Since the party I haven’t been the same. I now associate you with the night sky, looking at the stars-eyed boy with blue undertones. A true art in front of my own eyes.
I look towards you and the world seems to stop. I describe others as light but with you, you are more than that. You are the stillness as the cold air and beautiful as Van Gogh paintings.
I wish I can paint you and claim you as mine. But how can I measure up to as darling as you, my Starry Night. I hope one day our future would align, for I have romanticized you into my mind.
D, if you ever read this then I’m sorry for ever putting you next to my painter self. But truly I was starstruck by your eyes, and it seems that you were too. I hope to keep stillness of your calming nights and your honest of life.
Sending with love and colors -J
Since there are so many j on here I'm curious if he's on here. We've known each other almost all our lives. Ya know that big a name you got hmm. If your here I wonder but who knows..lol
So… you’re single now. What happened? Was he not good to you? I tried to tell you before that I believed I was the better choice for you. I tried to prove it through my words, but more importantly, through everything I did for you and everything I was willing to give. Yet, somehow, I was still the person you chose to leave behind.
I’m not writing this to make you feel guilty or to throw the past in your face. I just want to be honest with you.
If you ever need someone to talk to, I’ll still be here. If you’re hurting, I’ll listen. If you need someone who genuinely cares about you, you know where to find me.
But if you ever consider coming back into my life, I need you to understand that I can't simply go back to the way things were. I loved you deeply, and I gave so much of myself to our relationship. I was there for you when you needed me, and I tried to show you every day how much you meant to me.
If we were ever given another chance, I would need to see that you’re capable of being there for me, too. I would need more than words. I would need consistency, effort, communication, and the feeling that I matter to you just as much as you mattered to me.
I can't make that decision for you. The ball is in your court now, K.
Maybe you'll never even receive this, and these words will never reach you. But regardless, there is something I want you to know.
Despite everything that happened, despite the hurt, and despite how far apart we've become, I still love you. I still care about you. Very much. ❤️
I don't know what the future holds for either of us. Maybe our paths will cross again, or maybe they won't. But a part of me will always be grateful for the time we shared and for the person you were to me.
Whatever happens from here, I hope you're okay. And I hope, someday, you understand just how much I truly cared.
The choice is yours now K.
- W ❤️
My brain will not let me rest today.
I miss you. I would love nothing more than to be in your presence and hug you.
Feeling teary tonight thinking of you.
Love you always.
Matty M
Hey! I still think about that one night. If you do too, don’t hesitate to reach out.
I can’t really explain it A, every moment when I’m with you I can feel the heat on my skin. Every time I look at you, I see the bright sky behind you, around you, just so bright that it reflects in your eyes. Despite everything, your life seems to fall apart and lonely as my heart. We shared a brief moment at the beach , at the park and even in your car but all I can see is the sunlight on our faces. I want you so much but you are so far from what I need.
I keep you separate from everything I have planned but I like those moments when life seems to stop. When we just sit around underneath the sun.
Even with everything wrong with our lives, I’ll tell you this. You will always remind me of sunlight, A. I hope you would understand me better after your divorce and my eventual death in love.
That I am a blur of colors but you are a moment of light. Keep that in your heart.
Coming from your friend, J.
I wish you had just been honest with me instead of going radio silent.
I could have handled a conversation where you told me you met someone you were excited about, or that you realized you weren't interested anymore. I might not have liked hearing it, but I could have accepted it. What makes me sad and, honestly, a little angry is that disappearing seems to be how you chose to handle things.
I genuinely liked who you were. I liked how easy it felt with you. I would have rather been left with the disappointment of knowing it was over than with the insecurity and wondering what I did that made you stop talking to me.
I'm a pretty loving person, and even when people hurt me, I usually still want the people I've cared about to be happy, whatever that looks like for them. I know I struggled with the FWB situation because I became more invested in you than you were in me. But I also don't know that I regret it. It felt good to have a silly little crush on someone. Maybe I do regret it. I don't know.
I did reach out once while you were still away because I couldn't stop thinking about you. I won't do that again. That message went unanswered until it was convenient for you, and then you reaching out when you came home messed with me more than I expected. I had worked hard to get myself to move on.
And then, just like that, you went back to no contact.
I think the hardest part is realizing that I made myself an easy place for you to come back to when you wanted a quick fix, and I put myself in that position because I was excited to hear from you again. That's on me, too.
Now I try not to think about how you are. I try not to wonder whether you ever think about me or if I was literally just blinded by a dumb crush. I try not to check an app just to see if you've messaged me. But even today there was some muscle memory to tap to check.
Sometimes I still miss you. Sometimes I'm aware I am just an idiot and feel embarrassed for caring about you.
I don't know if that's longing that hasn't faded yet, or if it's just the habit of having someone occupy a little space in my mind. Maybe eventually I'll stop wondering.
I just wish the whole thing had ended differently. Not necessarily with us together, but with a little more honesty and a little less disappearing.
You were someone I genuinely enjoyed knowing. I would have preferred to remember this as something that ended naturally, rather than something I had to slowly understand through your silence.
idek where to start. you felt like everything to me u still are. when i am with you i can be whoever i want to be whatever i want to be cuz i know u wont judge me for who i am around you. when i am with u i feel valued seen and cared. idek why id want to push you away from me. idk why id want to push a connection that i felt so raw and genuine away. i was scared id hurt you. i never wanted to hurt you in any way and what have i done now?? i miss you. i miss you more than anyone in ur life did. whatever i see around me makes me remind of you. u were the only person i felt i had something cuz u never made me feel like i was nothing. i was for once was me. u loved me for who i was and wanted me not to change for anyone and everyone. i cried and laughed in front of you knowing u wont leave me yet i left you cuz i was a fool. i love u A. i always do knowing we wont be together.
how come we never reconnect when we’re single?
I miss you so much. So much to the point I wish I sat at home doing nothing in May instead of whatever else that happened. You were so different than the others, yet you left just like they did. I felt like I had my someone the entirety of the whole thing. Thing cause idk how else to refer it as. You came to me bout everything. You made me feel special. You were always just there. You put up with a lot from me when you really didn’t have to. You were and always will be special to me. I don’t know what is going to happen but i know despite everything i love you for who you are. I hope whoever you choose to be happy with makes you happy but also sits with when you feel low. Despite everything I couldn’t bring myself to hate you. I’ll always maybe love you i think? Love is a strong word though. We sometimes tend to like things we can’t have.
I knew when you said that you were going to start therapy that I’d never hear from you again because you’d become happier in your current life and I had to make peace with that. I WANTED that for you. Your texts a couple times a year would make my heart pound and I know neither of us were in a situation that benefited from that feeling anymore. Sometimes I wonder if we made a big mistake because you still cross my mind often. I know we’re both moved on and living our own lives but part of me wishes you would text again, but the other part of me knew it was the last time. Part of me still loves you but we have to let go of the memory of the chemistry between us and the whirlwind romance that was one in a lifetime. If fate allows maybe we meet again. Someday…
Hey H😕,
It’s one of Those Days Today. Haven’t had One for a While. Nothing Wrong. Just one of Those Days. I’m Missing You. Wish I Could Come over Or You Come Over. We’d Just Hang like Two Pears😌. I’d be Happy Again doing nothing Just being around You. I’d just be Happy. It’s a Feeling of Losing Something or Something Missing from Where it’s Supposed to Be.
This Fucking Sucks,
Jay
JPG,
The only way for me to get over you was to go no contact. It clearly didn’t work since I’m hopelessly posting on here for you to reach out. I regret losing your number.
-KC
Did you ever feel the same?
You confused me.
I thought you loved me, then it went away.
You made me feel like such a fool.
That said
I miss you tremendously.
I wish you put up more of a fight.
Maybe we would’ve gotten it right.
Farewell.
xo
N
You know, every time i put my head on the pillow i can sense your presence. I don't truly know if it's my mind trying to comfort me or is it the universe telling me not to lose hope ... not to give up on you, not to give up on us. Nonetheless, i open my heart to your presence every single night, i hug your spirit and kiss your soul, and fall asleep hoping that tomorrow i may hug your body, and kiss your lips. I'll keep on hoping patiently every night, but i can't help but wonder .... until when ?
I was not in the slightest way expecting to feel this much. I have such stronger feelings for you than I’d like to admit. I don’t even want to admit it to myself how much I feel for you. I think I was falling in love with you honestly ???
And now it’s past midnight. I went through our photos together and am absolutely sick to my stomach with how much I want to call you.
I’m cozied up with your t shirt you left here. It’s making me feel a lot better but my stomach is still in knots. Your t shirt still smells like you too. It’s comforting but sad at the same time. More comforting than sad though.
I want to check in and see how you’re doing but I know I shouldn’t reach out. I selfishly hope you’re missing me too. But I also hope you’re not hurting the same as I am and are hanging in there. I hope space is treating you well and giving you clarity <3
I miss you a lot, T.