u/Awkward_Pop_6650

Ever since I have met you D, you always been kind and earnest. Sometimes too much that I’ll confuse it for attraction. I think of you often, trying to replay events and wanting to change some conversations to make myself seem better than what I am.

Since the party I haven’t been the same. I now associate you with the night sky, looking at the stars-eyed boy with blue undertones. A true art in front of my own eyes.

I look towards you and the world seems to stop. I describe others as light but with you, you are more than that. You are the stillness as the cold air and beautiful as Van Gogh paintings.

I wish I can paint you and claim you as mine. But how can I measure up to as darling as you, my Starry Night. I hope one day our future would align, for I have romanticized you into my mind.

D, if you ever read this then I’m sorry for ever putting you next to my painter self. But truly I was starstruck by your eyes, and it seems that you were too. I hope to keep stillness of your calming nights and your honest of life.

Sending with love and colors -J

I can’t really explain it A, every moment when I’m with you I can feel the heat on my skin. Every time I look at you, I see the bright sky behind you, around you, just so bright that it reflects in your eyes. Despite everything, your life seems to fall apart and lonely as my heart. We shared a brief moment at the beach , at the park and even in your car but all I can see is the sunlight on our faces. I want you so much but you are so far from what I need.

I keep you separate from everything I have planned but I like those moments when life seems to stop. When we just sit around underneath the sun.

Even with everything wrong with our lives, I’ll tell you this. You will always remind me of sunlight, A. I hope you would understand me better after your divorce and my eventual death in love.

That I am a blur of colors but you are a moment of light. Keep that in your heart.

Coming from your friend, J.