u/Silly_Minute557

I was not in the slightest way expecting to feel this much. I have such stronger feelings for you than I’d like to admit. I don’t even want to admit it to myself how much I feel for you. I think I was falling in love with you honestly ???

And now it’s past midnight. I went through our photos together and am absolutely sick to my stomach with how much I want to call you.

I’m cozied up with your t shirt you left here. It’s making me feel a lot better but my stomach is still in knots. Your t shirt still smells like you too. It’s comforting but sad at the same time. More comforting than sad though.

I want to check in and see how you’re doing but I know I shouldn’t reach out. I selfishly hope you’re missing me too. But I also hope you’re not hurting the same as I am and are hanging in there. I hope space is treating you well and giving you clarity <3

I miss you a lot, T.

I dont think I will ever meet anyone else and feel the way I felt with you. I wish you didn't disappear. I never understood why you just up and left even though your feelings were just as strong as mine, if not stronger. I just cant wrap my head around it even though its been months since we last saw each other. I mean it with my whole heart when I say that no one compares to you. You are everything I have ever asked for and more. I want you. I dont want someone else similar to you because they aren't you. No one will ever be you. I want you and all of you, the good and the bad. I dont want to move on nor do I even know how to. I've tried to, and youre still always in the back of my head.

Oh, and congratulations on your recent accomplishment! Im still rooting for you in silence even though we told each other that we wouldn't be strangers.

You became my yellow very very quickly, you are my yellow, and you always will be <3.

Knock on my door, I’ll answer. I don’t want to talk about things and re hash anything. I just want to be next to you for a little while. 💛