Ok I know I’m not alone in this right. Around the last week of your cycle (leutal phase) does anyone just ever feel HORNY ASF, like you cannot go to sleep, or think about anything other than sexual thoughts ?? Especially when you don’t have a partner or a sneaky link, tf am I supposed to do 😭 Love Island done got me horny for my own action damnnn. what does one do in this situation?
One week! I feel like this should be a celebration, but it feels like I don’t deserve it.. I haven’t binged (the literal definition of it). Yet I snacked and ate more frequently than usual today. I also had one of the foods i’m supposed to be avoiding because of my gallbladder and that… makes me want to binge or fast. The urge to eat is SO HIGH today and i think it is simply because of that food. I really do not want to binge. I still think about food everyday and at what hour I can eat, it’s so grueling. Like why can’t I be normal you know? And I know that I shouldn’t fast because thats always a trigger for a binge the next day. So I should still eat a proper dinner later in the day, but ugh. This is still hard.
I notice that I have had a lot of health issues after my BED has, I guess you can say, intensified. And I know that it will get worse unless I stop, but no matter how incredibly uncomfortable or painful my body feels, I still keep going. I‘m worried. I’ve been searching up my symptoms nearly everyday lol, chest pain, abdomen pain, constipation, breathing issues, etc…
My mother thinks I may have to get my gallbladder checked for gallstones… and that it will likely have to get removed. I don’t want that to be the case, because I’ve never had surgery, nor been put under. And if the doctor tells me that this is the case I will be so disappointed in myself, because it got that far and I could’ve stopped it. I know that I will continue the cycle even after (possible) removal.
I just want to take care of myself. Why can’t I do that. It hurts to eat. I can barely enjoy food now. It’s just habit at this point.