I feel like I have no real friends
Hi yall,
Im currently ”suffering” through a severe mental breakdown and I’m rethinking a lot of things in life and one of the biggest realizations I had is that I feel like I have no genuine friends with a connection that is reciprocated Let me explain, my friends rarely text me first, rarely make plans to hangout unless I do, a lot of the times indie certain concerns of mine and make last minute changes that make me feel like shit, and just overall make me feel like I have no strong connection to them and I’m their “if I have no one to hangout with, i’ll hangout w you i guess“ friend. I don’t know what to do right now and i hate feeling like this. I don’t want them as my friends even though it’s been years since i’ve been friend with them; i feel like they still do not know me for who i am or like what even i like
I really don’t want these people in my life. how should i navigate this aspect of my social life? i’m a college student and im so lonely because of this. What are some steps i can take right now