u/Sadguy2000

I posted in here the other day about my recovery goal/plan and asking for advice. Long story short I’m not prescribed any benzo but I do get real .5s and 1mgs from someone I know. Since probably about late to mid February I’ve been taking Xanax at a pretty consistent rate. Usually 1mg a day sometimes more sometimes less, there have been certain days where I’ve even went overboard. But this last Thursday I went 3 days without taking a single Xanax. No seizure. I did feel a bit more anxious but nothing crazy, besides yesterday. I think I felt so much more anxiety because Friday I did some heavy drinking so I was dealing with hangxiety yesterday. What are my odds of just going cold turkey? Has anyone in here just went balls to the wall and cold turkey’d? I just want to be done with this as soon as possible. I haven’t been on it for years and years so I want to grab it by the horns now and be done with it for good while I’m ahead. What are some tips I can use moving forward? I can deal with the insomnia and being anxious, fuck it. In due time I know things will get better, I just don’t want to die. Can anybody please give me some advice or motivation?

I’ve been taking anywhere from .5-2.5mgs a day since id say around February, some days i can go without one, even two days even. Some days i abuse it(that’s when i take around 2-3mg a day)but thats not often. Usually it’s only a mg a day, maybe 1.5 at most, but I want to quit. For myself and my family. Would I be good to cold turkey? You see I’m not prescribed, I just have a hook up. I get real prescription alprazolam though, the .5 peaches and the 1mg blue footballs. But I seriously, seriously want to stop, I’m just afraid of either dying or seizing out. Back in 2022 I was taking a lot of street bars, more or less 4-5 bars a day and drinking with it, I ran out one day, so basically had to cold turkey and had a seizure(at least I was told that’s what happened, I have no memory of it)please give me some advice of how to speed up the process. I really want to quit and get away from this drug. It does help, I can’t lie, but I don’t want to rely on this. I want to work on being me without the help of any substance.

How does the sizing for big bubble go? More true to size or should I keep size up .5 like I normally do for 95s. The only 95s I haven’t had to size up with were the sbs. Let me know! I’m interested in the black borders and the slates.