u/Safe_Age6898

Hey guys! So this is going to be a bit random but I’m going to Disneyworld in the fall for a DCP reunion and since I’ve gotten hardcore into SKZ this last year I knew I HAD to rep in the parks. So at first I was going to get AliExpress versions of the plush crossbody bags and dress them up but I realized that would probably be annoying by the end of the day and I’ve heard they don’t hold a lot😅 So I’m leaning more towards one of the backpacks! The “problem” is I cannot decide who I’d take! My top three are Bbokari, Han Quokka, or Leebit (I kinda feel like Leebit is the most Disney-ish out of the three which is kinda funny) and if I can figure out a way to dress them up since we’re going during Halloween I’d be over the moon. If I get Bbokari I know I’d have to give them an Elsa fit, Han Quokka a Spider-Man fit, and Leebit… he might honestly just go naked🤣 I’d love to hear suggestions and if you’ve been successful in dressing up one of these things PLEASE let me know!

So this last year of my life has been one of the more traumatic and draining one’s I’ve gone through (I was assaulted and then didn’t really get adequate justice and on top of that I almost died from a freak incident during surgery which led to me getting heart failure at a young age) and first, I feel like it’s wrecked my perception of my body because I just feel like it’s “failed me” so many times with it being the cause of trauma, weakening, and now me having to deal with the changes of weight gain as a result. I’ve noticed recently too that I just for lack of a better word have felt, broken? Like it’s kinda like when you shatter a glass vase, you can never get it to how it was before and I just don’t feel as vibrant as before some days. I am taking my meds religiously now after accidentally forgetting for a couple days making my body go into fight or flight it felt like. Another painful reminder of the aftermath. I do want to note I do have 100% function of my heart again BUT that’s with the meds. I guess I just feel anger more than anything that the things that have happened to my body were out of my control. I’ve wanted to do something like dye my hair a cool color or get a new tattoo to try to reclaim it but people don’t understand why I’m so adamant about it after saying for years I’d never touch my hair color (it is virgin hair) or when I say I want to tattoo over the scars to try to hide them, I’m told I should just use oils to try to fade them slowly which… kinda defeats the point in my opinion… I don’t know, I’m just tired of not having control over it anymore and it’s leading to me eating more and more because that’s the one thing I can control but I know that’s a dangerous habit to start. Luckily I do go to therapy in two weeks but I guess I just wanted to rant/get advice if anyone else understands what I’m going through?

Help Deciding Which One!