u/SailIndividual2592

Started to go psychologist a month ago and deconstructing allot, and I’m becoming so aware of all the ways Christianity hurt me.

I’m lesbian and grew up in conservative household, this lead me to try to be perfect, to make up for constantly feeling like I’m sinning. The shame.

I have been aware that I am peacekeeper, I try to make everyone comfortable around me. But damn, it goes so deep. I can’t stop analysing everything I do and say and see the scars and shame in everything. Like am I even my own person? What do I actually like?