Addicted to sissy/tg comics (vent)
Hello, I’ve been addicted to this feminization fetish for a long time. I’ve never liked my body because I’m morbidly obese, so I have this fantasy of being forced against my will to become a woman and be humiliated. I never imagine sex—my fantasy only involves the psychological aspect.
But recently it made me question my sexuality. I started to fear that I might be gay or bi, but at the same time I feel disgust when I think about having sex with a man. So I kept testing myself by watching videos of gay and bi porn to see if I get a boner, but it didn’t happen. Still, I felt so anxious that I thought I could have gotten a boner, even though I never did.
Most of the porn content I consume comes from a creator called Devin Dickie, and it’s basically comics. Some of those comics did turn me on. I generally just skipped the sex scenes and went straight to the humiliation aspects of the story. But now I’m addicted to testing myself. I feel so anxious looking at the gay sex scenes to see if my dick responds.
I started having intrusive gay thoughts. Sometimes it makes me sick, like I’m about to vomit, and sometimes it makes me want to cry.
I don’t know what I am anymore. I feel so pathetic. I just wanted to vent to someone who might understand what I feel