u/SaltButterscotch7658

For context I (20f) am single and have been single since forever. I’m a virgin and I’ve kissed 3 guys in total, twice in high school- and then a tinder “hookup”, that’s besides the point. I am in this weird phase right now where no matter what I do or try to do, I feel extremely unattractive and feel like all men do is avoid me. Although I wouldn’t say I’m conveniently attractive however I know I’m not hideous. I try to go to the gym as much as I can, I have a set skincare and haircare regiment, and I make sure I have my hair and makeup done and a nice outfit almost every time I leave my house. but I can’t help but feel like I’m a troll when I’m the only one out of all my friends who is single and who guys dont approach. Hell I can’t even get a text back from the guy I am interested in, its gotten to a point where I don’t even try and go out anymore- took myself off dating apps- and just have completely given up on my love life. I know I’m rambling but I genuinely just want to know what I can do to fix this “dilemma” I know it’s corny but I just really want to be in love and be loved and appreciated.

hi i 20F have been really really attracted to this guy, (backstory, two years ago we matched on hinge but live in the same area and went to neighboring schools, have mutual acquaintances in common etc.) i’ve always thought he was super super attractive; my ideal type for real. at first things were nice we were texting a lot and then we just stopped, always back and fourth one reaching out the other randomly, but he always seems to stop responding. at the beginning i believe we would flirt but now so much now, i just get so nervous thinking about asking him to hang out and whatnot; besides the point.

last night i had a very vivid dream about him, i had to drop off my friend who has a child at this mansion, i go inside with said friend and she’s talking to her “aunt” and we are all playing with her baby when the guy walks in, whole time that’s his house and my friends aunt is his mom, and we briefly talked before i had to leave, and in my dream i checked to see if he still followed me on instagram and he had unfollowed me, i was extremely upset and im my dream i woke up from sleep and checked thinking it was real life and he did the same. when i woke up this morning i checked to see if he was still following me and thankfully he was. but this is where im confused, he texted me not long after out of the blue which he rarely does anymore.

i couldn’t stop thinking about this the entire day as i was replying to him, and on my drive home while i was driving down the same road i do every single day that he so happens to live off of, i asked for any sign and a truck that looks exactly like his truck (which i thought it was) drove past me with the license plate 7771777 so i don’t want to upset myself by thinking this is a sign but please let me know what you guys think.