I don't know how to cope with death
hi, it's basically what the title says. i'm 16, dealing with depression and anxiety. i've always dealt with some kind of fear of death (even as a child, but i've been an edgy kid and i coped by telling myself that death is necessary, cause eternity would be boring). my anxiety got worse 1.5 years ago, since my sister nearly died (shes fine now). i've never had any experience with death back then and since then fear of death completely consumes my life (with breaks ofc).
i told my therapist about it many times and i dont think she knows exactly how to help me. everytime i talk about it she tries to find some "hidden meanings" beneath my fear. ik its a normal thing in cbt therapy, but most of it just sounds like bullshit to me (like telling me that my thanatophobia is actually caused by my sel-hatred??) and it doesnt help me overcome that fear. last week we talked about my thanatophobia again and she just told me its a common thing to be scared of death and how i shouldnt worry about it. it made me feel misunderstood so badly.
i cant find any help, am i just going to live in fear my whole life? does it get better?