u/Salty_Table2679

Hello everyone. This last year alone was enough for me to uncover all of the hidden narcissism that i have had all of my life.

Today I was walking and remembering all of the egotism and narcissism and pain that i have caused people that loved me and cared for me but I kinda only liked the attention that they were giving me. and also the victim hood that i have been playing all time.

I'm a 30y M by the way and many of things have happend in my life confirm 100% that i have a NPD. One of these things is in the last quarter of 2023, i was with a friend of mine when he has just started developping a severe cannabis induced psychosi and i was living with him inside of his family home sharing the second level of the house. And to be honest i was smoking that time with him and now i'm sober of a 1 year streak. His mom tried to stop gis weed addiction by giving him prescribed meds that helps with that but suddenly he cuts them off and also he didnt drip the ha it of amoking weed so. The poor guy started losing the ability to sleep and because the psychosis started. In the meantime he was doing an internship and for him he was obliged to be present all the time so its like he never saw sleep because of know. Going to work and staying awake smoking weed andd all of that. The thing here is I was with him and i fouldnt do nothing. I was promising his mom that he is gonna be fine with me but all of them were broken promises. There was a time where she trusted me to keep an eye on him, to no let him go out and i failed. He went out of the house early in the morning and went far away. His mom told me that i told her that he is safe with me, where is the safety. You see guys. By writing this i feel like am giving away something that is not supposed to be out here. But this is about me .. damn