Struggling to let go from someone (romantically)
Hi, I need some advice on how to stop thinking constantly about someone I dates for three weeks. Back in 2023 I dates this girl, whe texted each other all night, play roblox together, and felt a deep conection to her. But she rejected me almost a month after I started talking to her.
She blocked me from almost all social media, and I havent heard anything from for years now, and I mean ABSOLUTELY nothing, she vanished from my life, havent even crossed paths ever again.
The thing is that (and i hope this doesnt sound as crazy), since two years ago, I carry this feeling of her watching me live my life, judging me. Is not like a physical manifestation of her, it feels like if am being stared at by her but I cannot see her. And Also I have this fictional scenerios where, somehow, somewhere and somewhat we meet again, regardless of the situation. Sometimes I even imagine her getting into the same college am studying at.
(I have theorized, but never concluded, this is because of problems with how i see myself, as if I need the approval of her so I can feel enough for anyone else)
It is something I dont want to do, my mind just decides to create all of these scenerios. I ve actually made some work to fix this. I’ve done journaling, talking to someone about this, going on dates with other girls, sitting with myself.
Am an Artist, I like to write and drawing comics. And I have even dedicated my time to create a story about this so I can express the way i feel about this situation. I think I’have had a good progress over this, I feel like she has been slowly being decentered from my life. The problem is that I still feel stared at by her, and my mind still (but slowly letting it go) creates fictional scenerios.
Is there anything more i can do? Is there anything am missing? Or do I just need to go on and continue this process? (I have been doing this like since 6-8 months ago) Thanks for reading my paranoic thoughts!