u/Sanoy010

23M

I finally completed my diploma in civil engineering in 2025. It took me five years instead of three because of COVID and a couple of back papers. By the time I graduated, most of my friends had already moved ahead. Some completed their studies abroad and are already coming back with degrees and jobs, while I'm still here trying to figure out my life.

After my diploma, I worked for about two years as an assistant at an engineering consultancy. My work mainly involved basic building design and property valuation. I left that job because I was preparing to study abroad, but things didn't go as planned. For reasons I still don't fully understand, it never worked out.

Now I feel completely lost. My mind is blank most of the time. I can't fall asleep until three in the morning, and my days pass without doing anything meaningful. I'm living off my parents' money, and all the savings I had are gone. Every day feels the same.

I feel like everyone else is moving forward while I'm standing still. It's hard not to compare myself to the people around me, and the more I compare, the more I feel like I've fallen behind. Right now, I don't have a clear direction or even the confidence that I'm making the right decisions. It feels like I'm stuck in a vortex with no way out, and sometimes it honestly feels like I've reached the end of the road.

I'm 23 years old, and I finally completed my diploma in civil engineering. It took me five years instead of three because of COVID and a couple of back papers. By the time I graduated, most of my friends had already moved ahead. Some completed their studies abroad and are already coming back with degrees and jobs, while I'm still here trying to figure out my life.

After my diploma, I worked for about two years as an assistant at an engineering consultancy. My work mainly involved basic building design and property valuation. I left that job because I was preparing to study abroad, but things didn't go as planned. For reasons I still don't fully understand, it never worked out.

Now I feel completely lost. My mind is blank most of the time. I can't fall asleep until three in the morning, and my days pass without doing anything meaningful. I'm living off my parents' money, and all the savings I had are gone. Every day feels the same.

I feel like everyone else is moving forward while I'm standing still. It's hard not to compare myself to the people around me, and the more I compare, the more I feel like I've fallen behind. Right now, I don't have a clear direction or even the confidence that I'm making the right decisions. It feels like I'm stuck in a vortex with no way out, and sometimes it honestly feels like I've reached the end of the road.

I am writing a Novel ,which i always wanted to write..this is my first time writing something..

I am not a english speaker, so i am very bad in english..I have not even read that many novels , so i don't have any idea about how to write things..

And, genuinely i don't want to read any novel and copy them subconsciously...

Is it ok if i take help from Ai for grammar and sentence structuring??Or will it make the story unreadable??

Even, the concept is kinda cheesy. So i am not sure if i should master english first or Just use ai for structuring and grammars???

I randomly bought a game CD during a vacation when I was still in school, but I forgot the name of the game. It was a military/army game where you had to complete different missions across various maps while recruiting or rescuing new teammates along the way.

I only remember the first mission clearly. It took place in a desert. I arrived by helicopter, fought my way through enemy bases, and rescued a prisoner. While rescuing him, I planted C4 and blew up a bridge. After completing the mission, I was transported to another map with a different objective.

The game was so much fun to play, but now I've forgotten its name and most of the other missions it had.