open relationship but my boyfriend doesnt want to have sex w me
my bf (M38) me (M26) age gap is not really an issue for me. 8 years a go we met on grindr, sex was hot we had sex like twice every 2 days for first 2 years. then he asked me to be his bf. but as in open relationship and i said yes. year 3 and 4 sex was less as we both explored other guys but never really discussed or played together....year 5 we started looking to buy a place together and we finally found one and move in.....but after we moved in we were so stress with the house and that time i also got laid off from a job so i was quite upset with life so we had less and less sex. fast forward to this year we almost broke up in jan as he went on a solo holiday 3 weeks and expected me to feel ok with it. so i got upset when he got back as i felt disgusted by his behaviour .....we stopped talking for 3 weeks, didnt have sex not even a kiss for almost 8 months. after valentine things start getting better as i said i still love him and still want this to work so i moved on and forgive him but he never said or understood why i felt upset about his solo holiday. he even brough 2 pairs of socks from those guys back home which drive me nuts. those still in the cupboard......now we have a bj once every week or 2 which is nothing compare to when we first know each other, every time i brought the sex up or try to get sexy with him he will push me away but he is always online grindr and other apps. i tried to break up but we bought a place together so hard to get out atm....have to wait till we renew and ask him to seperate.......is he seeing someone els at this point and only staying together because he cant find someone to love him ?