This doesn’t happen with everyone, but has happened more than enough times to be fed up and irritated (and setting better boundaries) - people don’t answer my questions and texts, but watch my stories when I share something… since this feels ”weird” to me, I have started to cut these people off.. because I don’t get the behavior..
Is this a common thing here?
One of the reasons why I am so messed up or relate here as well, is the fact that I have attracted so many bullies and passive aggressive people - I wondered if I did something and I guess I did - but I want genuine and kind people, I don’t want this in my life… honestly I am usually just very honest and vulnerable and many people seem to hate that and prey or take advantage.. that’s why I am so sad or just wondering, why.. why can’t people just be vulnerable and flawed and kind..
Do you relate? Did or do you attract people like that as well?
I feel like I am going crazy with this topic, I feel so alone and wrong!
I know it is because of my bullying and severe neglect issues, but most people and their chatter and also smalltalk and laughing (when not included), make me feel so anxious and irritated - I often have to leave the Situation - when listening to music and walking or being alone, I feel better.
Its hard to share this… aside from here I guess
Is this common here, are you also annoyed or do you not give a fuck outside?
Do you get scapegoated a lot? It has happened my whole life!
My caregiver suggested that I might be schizoid and then I realized that he might be right - I have never hated people, but loved solitude and peace, maybe because I am from the worst kind of family in that regard and had stress with my parents on going until the age of 29 - for me it’s the appearance as well and disability, I have always been the prey for bullies - since getting this advice I try to find a lifestyle in more solitude and peace - not hurting anyone, and protecting myself!
How did you handle that aspect of life with the housing - how is your living environment? Do you live alone or with others? Are you content?
Hi, my caregiver gave me the hint that I might be schizoid - after researching it, i noticed, that many things kinda fit!
I grew up in a dysfunctional family with a very controlling and narcissist father, mother also narcissistic tendencies - I was a very sensitive, probably neurodivergent child, but I also always liked being alone so much - I am now 31 years old and I have been criticized for this my whole life.. I live on my own and use headphones for sensory issues and to detach from neighbors.. my neighbors are controlling so I try to move..
I find peace in calm music/jazz and arts.. people often irritate me and are too much - social norms and capitalism exhaust me so much!
It feels so good to validate this condition and say, maybe that’s the way I am and I should adapt life instead of fighting it!