I feel like I was addicted to 4-ho-met
I first tried 4-ho-met a few months ago. I got about 5 pills that I believe were 10 milligrams each. The first time I did it with about 4 homies with me. That said the effects were even crazier with weed so we stepped outside and smoked a joint a little bit before my visuals started kicking in (bout two hours after taking a pill) first I felt extremely relaxed. I was chilling on the couch talking shit with one of my buddies when the visuals started kicking in while I was talking to him. My couch has a Southwestern** geometric design **on it which I think really inspired my visuals. But when my visuals started kicking in I saw the pattern moving across the couch like it wasn’t connected. I looked up at the ceiling and my popcorn ceiling started to look like little fish swimming across my ceiling. My homies were glad I was having a good time they ordered pizza that I was too high to eat, they made some pot brownies. It was a blast.
Then I did it the next night. Then the next, and the next. I don’t think it was the drug I was really addicted to but the way it made me think. I didn’t think about yesterday. I didn’t think about tomorrow and I just lived entirely in the moment.
My last time taking it was still in this chain of taking it every day for almost a week and it was just me and my other homie who I haven’t tripped with before he said we should snort two of them up until now I had only taken 1 and still had crazy trips but this time is what made me stop. My homie snorted two 10 mg pills, I snorted one and popped the other. We went on a walk smoke some weed and came back inside needless to say I was tripping hard it started to be hard to stay in the moment I started to freak out after having a fucked up ego death type thing where I saw myself sitting there in my trip room looking like a drooling idiot. My homie who was much higher than me wasn’t even able to hold a conversation when I told him that I was freaking out said “damn dude like this whole night depends on you” which definitely didn’t help.
It was at this moment I realized that I had to stop or I would end up seeing severe side effects like the seizures that are at risk.
I wanted to know if anyone else had an experience like this, if I should stay clear of color, or if it was just too big of a dose for me making a bad trip?
And feel free to ask any questions.
(Sorry I’m really bad at typing long posts)