Got rejected because I admitted I was still a virgin…
… feeling so depressed rn
she’s a girl I met at a party and I had the biggesssst crush of my life on her (and I’m usually super picky….). we have been seeing each other for 3 weeks and they were honestly the best dates of my life…. and we ended up going back to her place last friday night
… tbh in my head I genuinely wanted to sleep with her, in my head the decision was made. so when we started kissing and things began to heat up, I stopped for a second and told her « that I had never done anything before » …
and her reaction literally destroyed me. .. she froze then pulled away from me like I had just told her I’d killed people and hidden them in a closet or something.. the she said: “oh..really? in that case, I don’t think I’m the right person to fill that role for you.” and then panicked I told her: no, it’s the opposite I really want to do it with you blablabla
then her answer was basically that she needs partners who are sexually aligned with her, and that since I’d never done anything before the things she likes would definitely kinda scare me… shee said it would be better for me to take that step with someone else
since then I haven’t heard from her at all (ghosting..)
and now I feel like sending her huge paragraphs trying to fix it because I feel like I ruined everything with the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met?? istg I’m not exaggerating, it feels like the biggest loss ever
what should I text her to win her back???