u/Scarlaymama0721

I recently listened to The Untethered Mind And I'm currently listening to living untethered by Michael a singer. I have a younger daughter who is 13 and I would like her to listen to an audiobook that shares this kind of wisdom and simplistic terms for her to understand. The power of now is another book that I listen to and I'm looking for something for my daughter that imparts the same views in a way that will speak to her. Does anyone have any suggestions? Books that encourage teenagers to focus on the moment, to free their mind, anything like that? Thank you so much

Yesterday I went on my first actual trip instead of microdosing. For the first couple of hours it was wonderful. It felt like whatever higher being created our universe was also inside of me and had always been there. And that it loved me and that it would never go away I just had to seek it and it would be there. I understood a lot of my depression and where it was coming from and how I basically made it impossible for me to be happy. I asked questions and I got answers that made perfect sense to me.

Then it went kind of sideways. My daughter dropped by to discuss an outfit with me that she was going to wear to a concert that night. She's 25. She did not know that I was on shrooms and I've always been the kind of mom that that tries to be perfect and hides so her problems from her kids. So while she was talking to me I felt super vulnerable and like I had to fake like I was perfectly all right but I wasn't. We were sitting outside and suddenly it was like everything in the world paused and it was just me and her and we were sitting on this empty sound stage, like what you would picture the Truman show looked like before they put props in it. And the trees that had been so comforting to me an hour before suddenly looked like they were just props. There was a deep quiet to everything, the absence of sound except for her voice. And at one point I don't know how else to explain it but I was very aware that this body was my avatar And conversing with her was hard because I almost felt like a marionette nodding and saying the right things.

My daughter is cool as fuck so I just ended up being honest with her. She sat with me and stroked my back and my hair while I lay there crying at the beauty of the world. While at the same time knowing that it was all created for me to learn and experience but it wasn't exactly real.

Has anyone else ever experienced this?

Starting about 3 years ago my my daughter who was 21 at the time started going into psychosis. We figured it was the amount of weed she was smoking and got her off the weed and got her on antipsychotics. Since then she has psychotic breaks 3 to 4 months because she will suddenly go off of her medicine with no warning. She doesn't taper off or anything even though we've discussed it multiple times. She's not smoking weed though.

Her current psychotic break has been going on for 11 days. She refuses to take her medicine because she says it makes her feel ill. My question is is it possible that the reason she keeps going into the psychotic breaks is because she goes off her medicine without tapering?

My second question is is there any hope that the more time she goes by she may recover from the psychosis without the meds? She has been off the meds for at least 2 weeks. Have any of you ever gone off your meds without tapering and recovered without having to restart meds?

And just any advice you guys have in general would be really helpful. Feel like I'm losing my mind with worry and I'm not going to be of any use to her if I can't get my own terror under control. A lot of her psychosis centers on people that are very close to her in her life suddenly seeming unsafe to her. To the point where she thinks they have a plan to kill her. I can't get her committed because she's 24 and I can't force medicine down her throat. So just any advice would be great. Thank you so much