jealousy
idk why this is so weird to say but i’m so jealous of girls younger than me (im 17) idk if it’s a trauma response or but i scroll and scroll and see all these pretty girls check their profile oh their younger than me! how lovely i feel so old and expired i feel like nobody wants me anymore i have a loving relationship with people and people who care for me but when i see girls younger online exploiting themselves it reminds me of how i used to be and the feeling i would get and the attention i would receive, i miss it and i know it’s bad but i just miss being dmed by older men. i don’t want it to happen anymore ofc i have a loving boyfriend who cares for me but i just get so jealous seeing these girls blow up for showing their body and being young while im over here rotting and pushing adulthood:/