We filed CH7 but still have a couple of payments to go on our car. We are doing the reaffirmation and will end up paying it off before the discharge. Are we at risk of losing the car? Is it likely the bank we have the loan with can take it back? My wife really needs the car to get the kids around in and a one vehicle home isn’t a great option.
I did 5MeODMT a year ago to round out an Ibogaine retreat. In the past year I’ve been alcohol free which was my intention. While living without addiction has been the relief needed to press on, cleaning up the messes created during years of addiction is challenging to say the least. I am still getting to the root of issues that fueled my addiction and behavior which is tough but positive and necessary. I didn’t have a “breakthrough “ during the 5MeODMT. I had a “blacking out” feeling similar to what I’ve felt going under anesthesia. I was told I purged and said “I shouldn’t have done that”. I had felt miserable from the Ibogaine because I truly didn’t think it worked at the time, I didn’t have much of an experience with it and over time had to trust the medicine was doing its thing and since I’m typing this now.. I was correct, it (Ibogaine) did. After feeling unsettled and angry that not only had the Ibogaine “not worked” I simply felt like i went unconscious for a few moments and then was back with someone telling me what I said. I felt nothing at all except further disappointment. I did set intentions and truly open myself to this and I decided to ask for a second round while I was still there and had access to it, and did it again later the same day. Similar experience only this time I remember coming to and was upset and crying when I came back. They told me I said repeatedly, “I’m not okay”. I have no idea what “I shouldn’t have done that” and, “I’m not okay” meant.
TLDR: I feel called to find a way to reach deep within myself to see if I can love myself. I have such self hatred it’s becoming a bit scary to me and it’s effecting me in not great ways which sucks now that I’m living, actually living, and not walking in addiction every day. I believe in this type of medicine. I believe psychedelics are the method I need for healing. Prior to Ibogaine and 5MeODMT I had not done any sort of psychedelic therapy. With all of the options out there, how do you choose what to take to start a healing journey such as this?
Yes, logistics and finances are always an issue but I don’t want to limit myself either. FWIW, 50yof, located in Southeastern US, will find my own source, etc. once I determine what is best. Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts.
I did 5MeODMT a year ago to round out an Ibogaine retreat. In the past year I’ve been alcohol free which was my intention. While living without addiction has been the relief needed to press on, cleaning up the messes created during years of addiction is challenging to say the least. I am still getting to the root of issues that fueled my addiction and behavior which is tough but positive and necessary. I didn’t have a “breakthrough “ during the 5MeODMT. I had a “blacking out” feeling similar to what I’ve felt going under anesthesia. I was told I purged and said “I shouldn’t have done that”. I had felt miserable from the Ibogaine because I truly didn’t think it worked at the time, I didn’t have much of an experience with it and over time had to trust the medicine was doing its thing and since I’m typing this now.. I was correct, it (Ibogaine) did. After feeling unsettled and angry that not only had the Ibogaine “not worked” I simply felt like i went unconscious for a few moments and then was back with someone telling me what I said. I felt nothing at all except further disappointment. I did set intentions and truly open myself to this and I decided to ask for a second round while I was still there and had access to it, and did it again later the same day. Similar experience only this time I remember coming to and was upset and crying when I came back. They told me I said repeatedly, “I’m not okay”. I have no idea what “I shouldn’t have done that” and, “I’m not okay” meant.
TLDR: I feel called to find a way to reach deep within myself to see if I can love myself. I have such self hatred it’s becoming a bit scary to me and it’s effecting me in not great ways which sucks now that I’m living, actually living, and not walking in addiction every day. I believe in this type of medicine. I believe psychedelics are the method I need for healing. Prior to Ibogaine and 5MeODMT I had not done any sort of psychedelic therapy. With all of the options out there, how do you choose what to take to start a healing journey such as this?
Yes, logistics and finances are always an issue but I don’t want to limit myself either. FWIW, 50yof, located in Southeastern US, will find my own source, etc. once I determine what is best. Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts.