I'm confused if I have Aphanthasia?
So I used to be a visual arts student- I love love the subject and im good at it too! I can sculpt, draw, sketch etc. But I have always struggled with translating pictures from just my head into my artwork. I NEED a refrence. It gets very frustrating too at times. I have ideas in my head - I can imagine what I want it to look like but I can't visualize it and I can't reflect it straight off my mind.
My imagination is also idk how to explain so I'll try my best. It's dark static if I try to picture something but I can project stuff? At the top of my head? 😭 its not very clear but for example an apple- i can imagine a red blob- its not a clear one- and move it around and all but i can't actually visualize it. I'm so sorry I don't even know if that makes sense.
If I read a book or stare out the window I like trying to imagine all of it but again its more like a projection? I can't think of a better work. Sometimes im not sure if im actually even projecting these things or if its just imagining them. (Not to be confused with visualising)
Also edit but idk if this helps but for example im really good with directions. But i can never picture directions- its more so remebering through familiarity?
Would love for some insight on this!