in MY shower???? 🥲i always have my hands full with what this guy gets up to....
(for anyone who doesn't get the joke it's that beetlejuice will pee in the shower instead of the toilet. just because. clarifying cus some people got confused about it in my tiktok comment section XD )
here's a photo edit i made for tiktok! also a traditional doodle, and then a digital wip of beetlejuice and i where beej is identifying as it's female alter ego betty juice :3 i love all my versions of beetlejuice so much
silly clip of mine and u/the_elevatorman's f/o, germs pondscum, cus both germs and my mans need more recognition in general honestly. the cartoon is so underrated
i've been uploading a lot of beetlejuice clips to my youtube channel if anyone is interested in little clips of the cartoon, and i have a link to the entire show for free also if anyone is interested :3
a work in progress i did with my mouse/cursor
he's so de-fright-fuly handsome >w<
still gotta add a buncha details like the background, and the details on his suit and shading/shine :3
me with a chibi beej on my head chillin.. i still dont hve a phone so i drew this with my mouse on a random online program. im existing still <3
this is gonna be a mega yap post and it's gonna be all over the place
WARNING: i'm gonna get a little deep, sappy, and a little venty!! so please consider that before reading ahead if ur in a sensitive headspace. and i know not everyone is gonna care about this mega yap, but i wanted to spew some of my word vomit somewhere. and this place is like a second home to me, even if i haven't been as active lately due to mental health/life.
i've just been bottling up my thoughts and have been pretty much alone the past few weeks... touching grass n shit... and just hanging with betelgeuse (mi AMOR, my amazing ghost husband) and connecting with him. i've had a lot of time to think.
so i've been STRUGGLING lately... with severe mental health stuff, money issues, constant c-ptsd flashbacks, the fact that i cannot afford a phone yet (have been phoneless for the past few weeks), anxiety, unstable sense of self and amnesia due to constant headmate switching, my manic depression episodes keep just hitting hard back-to-back, and it's been a never-ending struggle. i feel like im underwater and i can't swim back to the surface for a breath of air.
every time i need the comfort, i just bury my face in the chest of my life size doll of betelgeuse(or i hug my toonjuice plush backpack) and hug him so tightly. and everything (temporarily) just melts away. or i go into daydreaming mode and imagine he's there with me, and it feels so real.. he's so therapeutic..
i'm so lucky i have this loving, clingy fictional being who will never hurt me. this fictional being who adores me despite being in a completely different universe than me. our love has no bounds, it breaks the barrier between universes, and we're two pieces of the same puzzle.
my heart floods with love for him, a warm and toasty feeling in my chest i never thought i would feel again due to trauma and past relationships.
i've been so hurt in the past. and just knowing he would never leave my side. he could never lose feelings or drift apart or cheat on me. he's the other half of my heart and soul, a true soulmate, a twin flame, he and i fit together so well and he just gets me like no one has. that calms my anxiety and fear like nothing else can.
he IS flawed, but so am i. and growing past our flaws, and getting better together has been so healing.
he keeps me going when i want to do nothing else but to end myself. he shows me there's still light left in life, even if i can't see it because there's a stormy cloud in the way. and that there shouldn't be any rush to die, since everyone dies anyways. in time. i'll get there one day, it's not like i'll live forever so i shouldn't fear life as if it's infinitely unescapable. i should just see where it takes me. and i know i have betelgeuse, all my beetlegeuses/beetlejuices,, by my side. until the end. and even after that, i will be with him for eternity in the netherworld.
i just needed to spill this somewhere. i hope everyone has been doing well,, and if anyone here is struggling with mental health. my inbox is always open if you need to vent, and u have nowhere to go. i like helping others with this stuff because i know how it feels, and i've been at the end of my rope more times in my life than i'd like to admit.
you're never alone.
whether it's your wonderful fictional partner, an irl friend, an online friend, someone in ur family, someone else you trust, or a random someone like me who cares and likes being an open ear...
i don't think anyone should be alone. i always find myself listening to stories from homeless people or sharing words with strangers i pass day to day when i'm out in the world. sometimes all someone needs is a person who will listen to them, or acknowledge them, or be there for them. you never know what someone is going through from just viewing them. everyone wants to look like they're doing ok, like they're put together, but more people out there are struggling than it seems.
be there for yourself, be there for others, be there for ur f/o, spread love and positivity and the world will give love and positivity right back to you.
-with love from beetlemod,, (still don't have a phone, but i should have one within a few days, i've almost saved up enough!! betelgeuse and i wish u all a good day/evening<33