u/Secure-Positive-5207

I don't feel safe in my body anymore. I'm so hypervigilant of my movements now and it feels like it's all a gigantic ticking time bomb.

I honestly wish there was better data on the prevalence of hypermobility and the actual risks of developing chronic severe pain, so I could 1) feel less alone and 2) have more of an idea about how much I SHOULD be worrying.

• Total budget (in local currency) and country of purchase. Please do not use USD unless purchasing in the US: 700-1000 euros, preferrably around 800
• Are you open to refurbs/used? Yes, I am thinking of getting a used Thinkpad if I can't find anything that's sure to last
• How would you prioritize form factor (ultrabook, 2-in-1, etc.), build quality, performance, and battery life? Good build quality (shouldn't break for at least 5 years), good to okay performance, battery life less important
• How important is weight and thinness to you? Thinness doesn't matter, weight shouldn't be anything crazy
• Do you have a preferred screen size? If indifferent, put N/A. 15-16 inches
• Are you doing any CAD/video editing/photo editing/gaming? List which programs/games you desire to run. Some Fl Studio, some Sims 3/4
• If you're gaming, do you have certain games you want to play? At what settings and FPS do you want? Sims 3/4 with moderate amount of expansions
• Any specific requirements such as good keyboard, reliable build quality, touch-screen, finger-print reader, optical drive or good input devices (keyboard/touchpad)? Reliable build quality and shouldn't terribly overheat. Don't need a touchscreen or anything like that.
• Leave any finishing thoughts here that you may feel are necessary and beneficial to the discussion. Should I listen to people on reddit telling me brands other than Lenovo and Apple are garbage? Old laptop was a 6yo HP that worked perfectly fine (until it didn't). Unsure whether I am overthinking things or should just get something by ASOS or HP or a Lenovo series other than Thinkpads.

EDIT: 750 for the title!!!

My obsession with hEDS/HSD jumps between being a genuine interest and hypochondria, as these conditions are both fascinating and horrifying.

I feel like I have too many symptoms of HSD to completely ignore the issue and write it off as pure hypochondria. But also no real impairment or significant/chronic pain (besides my tight back which I wouldn't count), so no actual disorder, just vague symptoms that feel like a ticking time bomb. Not worthy of seeing a doctor for, but enough so I can't let go.

I'll just list the symptoms. For the life of me I cannot tell whether it's something that I SHOULD be thinking about or whether it's just harming my mental health.

• Clearly hypermobile joints that get sore easily: Neck, shoulders (very visibly subluxate when I pull on them too hard while relaxing them, but they only hurt after exercise)
• Asymptomatic hypermobility: elbows, so beighton=2
• Potentionally hypermobile, as I have more than average ROM in them and I feel uncomfortable movement in them sometimes: jaw (have TMJ and can open wider than normal), Hips (can W sit for example, but not comfortably), feet/toes
• Potentionally mildly flexible skin (hard to tell), wounds take a couple of days longer to heal than doctors predict (will sometimes be 17 days if they say it's 14 days), skin-writing (dermographia), but no easy bruising or stretch marks, scars look normal (though they are "young")
• Chronic mild constipation, issues with peeing (muscles down there cramp up sometimes), swallowing hurts but not too badly
• Piezogenic papules on both my heels, arms long enough to have had one person comment on them, dental crowding, can put my fingers around my wrist (though I am borderline underweight)
• have autism as well

Typing it all out, I feel like I do sound like a hypochondriac. But I still want to know if you guys think whether this is something worth exploring or whether I should just let it go.

I want to complain a little, so I made a list containing different things that people sometimes say in online spaces, mostly about autism.

• "BPD is just undiagnosed autism and/or ADHD." I have ASD and BPD and believe me. They are different. It's disrespectful and invalidating to tell someone with BPD that they were most likely misdiagnosed, especially if they themselves never expressed doubt about their diagnosis. You wouldn't want to keep people from getting the treatment they need, if they have a disorder with good treatment options, right? Same thing applies to telling people they must have CPTSD instead, but that's another topic.
• "RSD (rejection sensitivity dysphoria) is a symptom of ADHD/autism." RSD is not a very well established or well researched term. It can be a symptom of all kinds of mental disorders. But it is not a symptom of ADHD/autism specifically, though it can co-occur.
• "Autism ins't a disability, it's just a different way of thinking." I don't think I need to elaborate on why that one irks me.
• "Most people with autism probably have CPTSD." This is part of a larger problem of people not understanding the CPTSD criteria, thinking you don't need any big T trauma, or thinking that everyone with trauma must have CPTSD.
• "CBT/other therapy modalities or inpatient therapy programs don't work for people with autism." That might be the case for some, or even a large chunk of autistic people. Still, I believe everyone should try for themselves, and telling people that therapy won't help them anyway honestly is a bit cruel.
• "If you think you might have autism and spend time researching on it, you probably have it." People can obsess or overthink this topic even if they don't have autism.

I might add some in an edit in case I think of more.

Ich kenne keine genauere Bezeichnung. Ich meine Menschen, die etwa schlecht oder gar nicht lesen können (und nur eine dürftige Schulbildung haben) und im Alltag viel Unterstützung brauchen.

Was tun diese Menschen, abgesehen von Werkstattarbeit und sich langweilen? Fernsehen, spazieren gehen, Videospiele, Puzzeln? Haben sie genauso Hobbys wie Zeichnen oder Sport und treffen sie sich genauso mit Freunden? Was sind so die beliebtesten Aktivitäten?