I don’t know where else to post this and I need to get this off my mind - my experience with Amino
I remember getting into Amino when I was around 12.
I had just finished watching jackcepticeye’s undertale let’s play and found the undertale amino app by searching “Undertale” on the App Store.
At first I thought it was marvelous, it truly made me learn English so quickly being able to chat with so many people with a common interest in the game.
I then got into roleplays a lot and I think it’s where things went south.
I didn’t realize back then how ill intentioned some users there were and I think I was pretty heavily groomed.
Now I’m 24, years flew by and I think the social mess I am , the insecurities I have all stems from those adults being so inappropriate back then.
A child shouldn’t have fetishes and things hammered into their head, and it took me years to understand how fucked up some of those things were.
I never really saw myself as a victim back then until recently , I thought this was all on my own accord but I was a shy kid in school with not much friends, I was so vulnerable and nowadays now that the app is gone I realize how people have wronged me so much.
I am angry at those people, angry that they’ll never face consequences for destroying my headspace so much from a young age. From making me as conflicted and confused with who I am.
I’m not going into details in this post because it’s really not the point.
Just needed to get this off my chest somehow.