Help! Relationships send me into full-blown psychosis.
Hello,
I'm 28 M and I never had a relationship, I've had sex before but not a relationship.
I take medication ever since my first psychosis which I had at 19 - Riseperidone and Depakine.
I've been off medication a couple of times but had to get back on it due tue psychotic episodes.
The problem with my psychosis is that it only starts on subjects involving women and relationships meaning that If I fall in love or I think I fall in love or get any Idea of loving another person (which happened quite often in the past) I start spirialing.
I was always the loner type and the first time a girl hit on me romantically was in high school which triggered my first psychotic episode including auditory and visual hallucinations.
Ever since then going through each episode has gone easier however I tend to become closed of in my love life which is non-existent due to this reason.
All of my psychotic episodes in my life which were a couple like 5 or 6 involved falling for someone then spiraling.
I refuse to live my life like a hermit. I want to get married one day.
Could you please share some advice?
should I start going back to therapy for this?
Last psychotic episode I had was in 2024.
Thanks.