I know I am not a good looking person but I just would like to make my cleft less visible for now until I get a repair for less dirty looks and bad club weekend conversations.
Am new to this community and don't use this app much lately I've been having a lot of dark thoughts and nothing seems to help.I don't have friends nor a mate and I wonder if it's due to my deformity does it look bad enough to frighten people because I have heard comments like I deserve it and am a curse from god and other words that am embarrassed to say in a community with people who have the same struggle from a invidual I don't want to mention nor think about. and it hurt me deeply' to hear that as a catholic. and I had questioned God i have had dark thoughts about my appearance and my religion and to be honest I have started believing that I am a curse anyways I want honesty and truth on wether the words that I've heard are true and if it is how severe is my birth defect and will my future surgery even be worth doing or should I just expect it