I felt desire for my friend; I feel a great deal of shame and regret.
I feel very embarrassed admitting this, but I want to tell you about a situation I’m currently dealing with. There is a female friend I met at school; our relationship is strictly platonic, and there has never been any romantic intimacy or anything of that sort between us. We were in the same class and sometimes sat right next to or behind each other, yet I always viewed her merely as a friend. However, after having a dream where I had sexual intercourse with her—which occurred while I was taking a short nap at school—I began to feel an intense desire for her. I constantly engaged in physical contact with her (tickling, etc.); although she didn't seem bothered by it, I was touching her with sexual thoughts in mind. I masturbate while thinking about her, and I feel guilty for doing so.