u/Sensitive-Island-235

I have made so much progress with my repression these past few years that I feel like starting HRT now will make all my efforts meaningless. I found out about transition and HRT when I was 20 , still had decent passing potential back then . But I decided that repression was the right path for me . Fast forward I am 25 now , I look much more masculine ,hairline definitely receding and my frame is definitely very manly. If I decide to transition now, not only will I not pass but that will also mean that not only did I waste 5 years repressing , but also that I failed to transition at my most optimal point. I chose the repression path ,there is no going back now .