I can’t deny it
I’ve experienced a love so real, so pure, so scary. That it’s hard to even comprehend, to even face myself.
It blew up in my face in a backwards way. And I was inevitably rejected as a projection of my inner self….
And so I resigned myself to life’s shallow ventures and endeavours, feeling that if I couldn’t have what I wanted… that I would get what I wanted in a cheap fashion. Cheap. Because that is what it is. It’s cheap ultimately in comparison. I could have all the money in the world and it wouldn’t be meaningful without the special person to share and experience life with.
I’ve felt something so real, so earth and reality shattering…. I feel like a part of my soul will never be the same again.
And in this reality… it just makes me seem crazy as all heck, yet it is my truth. My twin may even think I am crazy - or maybe they know. I’m not and won’t ever try to force anything. I fear I am suffering on my own all the while just trying to move on and grow as an individual.
I’ve been trying to run from it because my twin wasn’t co-operating and was flat out being misleading/hurtful in the 3D… I tried to reject my twin, but they keep coming back in ways like my dreams and through symbolism and whenever I’ve reached a higher level of being/a lesson. They are an undeniable presence in my life.