u/Separate-Donut-7800

Pretty much the title. I already like beans, but since I'm super extra broke, I'm upping my intake. My favorites are black beans, chickpeas, and lentils (I think they count as beans? Idk but that's what I'm gonna go with). Open to exploration. The only beans I know I don't like are black-eyed peas.

Give me all your best recipes! Especially cheaper ones, but if I eat enough beans I might be able to afford a few nicer ingredients every now and then.

You had such high expectations for me and I felt like I'm letting you down.

You thought you were getting a daughter, but you got a trans son instead. I know you still think of me as a confused little girl and it breaks my heart.

I did so well in school only to drop out my senior year of highschool. I was an honors student in the gifted program. I had a suicidal breakdown and dropping out was the only way to reduce stress enough to not have to go to an impatient facility (which also would've probably meant not graduating). Now I'm 23 working a minimum wage job, needing help to make rent, still so damn burnt out that all I do is work and sleep.

I'm trying to get my life together so I can stop relying on you and mom, but every time things look like they're going in the right direction, something happens to set me back again. An abusive relationship, being forced off my meds due to finances, everything getting more expensive, something always goes wrong.

You say I'm not a disappointment, but I know I am. I'm not who you wanted me to be. I can't be who you wanted or expected me to be. I don't even remember the last time you and mom said you were proud of me.

It's 5am, and I'm writing this through tears just wanting a hug from my parents. I'm tired of being strong. I wish you could see the constant war I'm at with myself to just keep going, so you would know that I really am trying. I'm the kind of tired sleep can't fix. I need my dad but you're almost 5 hours away.