u/Serene_d_pity

I leave the dreaming

For the next life

I don't really believe in next life

But I hope there is

Maybe then I will be living

And not just breathing

For this time,

I will leave it like this

Questioning

Questionably living like this

I will leave the dreaming

For the next life

Dreaming

Dreaming about something

I dont know what it is

But better than what it is at the moment

Better than the present dreamless me

Not struggling

Definitely not struggling

Struggling for surviving

Surviving as a hollow me

Hollow me with her smiling

Smiling? Me? Yes I am smiling

I will continue smiling

But I leave the dreaming

For next life

Dreaming of living for next life

I hope I am living

In my next life.

Can't I just disappear?

My existence,

My proof of being here,

Just vanishing in thin air.

Like a soft gentle breeze,

Into sweet nothing.

Memories of mine,

Erased.

Like it was never there.

With no stain left behind.

Laughter, cries, screams,

Dissipating to silence.

Like I never existed,

Free from the wallows of the world,

Free from expectations

And burdens.

Free from remembrance,

For better or worse.

These words shall too fade away.

Right here,

Right now,

Right this moment,

I wish to discontinue this existence.

I want to set free from the prison I have created

Guilty of feeling too much

I want to let them crash like ocean waves

But i am drowning with no words to release them

Trapped in a self made maze

I want to be found

But I tread deeper day by day

I want to hold on

But I am losing me

Won’t someone save me please?

But do I even want to live?