Blew up on my mom tonight
I am my mom’s sole care taker. She doesn’t know how to do anything online, I make her appointments, cook for her, drive her to all her many appointments. Everything. But part of the cognitive decline she is dealing with is that she barely talks. I run myself ragged trying to just make small talk with her. I miss talking to my mom. And she just won’t. It feels personal even though I know it’s probably not. So I yelled at her tonight through my tears. It just doesn’t feel fair. My dad left her several months ago because he couldn’t take it anymore. I just feel so freaking lonely.