https://youtu.be/2hIhFlNMFxY?is=8s9TEXVzrhWfB0R4
So what you are saying a great amount of emotional distress like depression can cause worse memory consolidation. And worse memory consolidation can cause wprse academic outcomes. Which in turn can worsen my depression. Leading to emotional distress. Crazy. How to escape this feedback loop. What to do?
Hello, so this is kinda of a follow-up to my previous two posts. But I can not seem to improve at anything.
I do not know whether I am just stupid, but even when I try to practice deliberately, I cannot improve no matter what. I feel really stupid because of it. Everything is just so hard for me to do. Even when I try really hard, I seem to fail. I do not know what to do with this.
I know that adopting a growth mindset and not seeing myself as such a failure could help, but it is really hard to see myself that way when I always fail. After years and months of trying, I think. I do not know why, but i feel like a failure when it comes to my education. I am a med student, but my exam results are not really great. I am from Poland, so I do not know how to convert these things in a way that would be understandable for Americans. Even simple things like trying to improve at League of Legends video game seem to be a crapshoot for me.
I try so much to improve, but every single time I keep on making the same fucking mistakes, over and over again.
Every time I seem to get something, a few hours later, trying to move to other things, I try to improve at I seem to forget everything. Is it just an IQ thing? Am I too low IQ, too stupid, or what the fuck is wrong with me? Am I just a failure doomed to fail over and over again?
Also i feel like my thinking is really slow. Slower than it used to be. I do not know if Inam just a low-IQ, stupid individual or is it just my depression sabotaging me or what is wrong with me. I genuinely feel likr trash and regularly think about shutting myself down because of it.
What is worse other people keep telling me that I seem to be inteligent so I feel gaslighted and lied to.
Does it even has sense to continue living if I know i will never amount to nothing. I will never be good at anything I am always going to be shit at everything i undertake.
Also, my academic life is not so hot either. I feel like I constantly forget things i have already learnt, and i keep making stupid mistakes. Everybody is smarter than me. They kno more and remember more, and it takes them less time to study and learn things. I feel like I am working hard, but just can't do anything.
It is so frustrating to make mistakes in things you think you know and also forget things you knew. I feel like I will never be a good doctor. And my life sucks. I am an idiot. I am so desperate to be smart but I just suck at everything.
What is more, my focus sucks ass too. What is wrong with me. I never had problems with remembering stuff i learnt during school. Now it is just embarrassing the amount of shit I have forgotten even tough i used to remember it.
What is more, I keep living my live on autopilot, constantly making stupid mistakes. I really hate myself. I do not want it to continue this way. What is wrong with me? What should I do?
I nver took an iq test cause it is pretty costly and also i am so afraid.