Went to therapy with my mum…
It was horrible. We had a huge fight in February this year and didn’t speak for 9 months. She asked to go to therapy (I had to arrange it).
Anyway- we go to therapy and I wanted to share a few things she said TO A THERAPIST to remind myself I’m not crazy:
I was jealous of my sister ever since I was born because I “just wanted attention”. An example she used was when my sister went to kindergarten for the first time and I had a tantrum because I wanted to go too. I was three.
She and my dad would “wake up in the morning on special days, like Mother’s Day or my birthday, and say what is she (me) going to do to ruin the day today” (I kid you not- her only example of special days were about her… )
“i was trying to punch you in the face. Your lucky your father held me back”
“if you ever speak to me like that again i will punch you in the face, and your dad will too”. I told her I have trauma from my childhood.
to wrap the session she said… “you were a vile child”
The session was 1.5hrs so obviously there is a lot more but a few of my favorite instances of her being just a horrible person.
It was hard. But it was some what validating. The mask definitely slipped a bit. And the therapist was helpful in at least TRYING to get her to see what she was saying was horrible. She did not like being told by the therapist that I should call the police if she punches me.
She REALLLY didn’t like being told that child protection should have been involved when I was a child being physically abused. She doesn’t dispute that she and my dad physically abused me but excuses it by saying they “lost their temper”.
I don’t know what response I even want here… just venting I guess.