real talk
About a month ago, I just started feeling completely depressed and down because of all the financial stress my family is going through. Seeing my single mother so stressed out completely drained me too, to the point where it’s a massive struggle just to show up to school. I have so much anxiety every single day I'm there, and I literally just want to leave the second I walk in. My grades have dropped, and I feel like my teachers are constantly judging me for it. It’s so frustrating because I used to be a really good student, but the end of grade 12 has just been completely hectic. To make it worse, it feels like everyone else already got into university, and since I haven’t heard back from anywhere yet, my self-esteem is totally gone. I have zero excitement for school anymore. It’s just become this daily battle of dreading what teachers will say and being anxious about learning. I even skipped two weeks of math and I’m honestly terrified to go back, but I know I have to force myself. If my past self saw me right now, they’d probably judge me so hard. I just don't feel like I’m the strongest or best at handling this stuff.
I honestly envy the people who can keep going strong no matter what life throws at them. I really hope I can get myself back on track soon too. But I genuinely am proud of them, and I wish everyone the absolute best of luck