u/Shinyblueghost

For long stretches of my life, I had debilitating health anxiety/ocd. Ruined so much of my life. Nonstop research, checking, fear, etc. In 2024, within months of losing my dad, my daughter received a genetic report that I would have said was my worst nightmare. Lots of uncertainty for the rest of our lives.
I don’t know how or why, but I have been at peace since then. I enjoy my time. I surrendered to the uncertainty -literally within 3 days of the news. I now have hobbies and sleep regularly. I have relinquished trying to control or be one step ahead. I don’t entertain the old voice telling me “worry” will protect me.
I thought I’d share since I’m still surprised at my response. But living this reality is far easier than health anxiety/ocd, somehow. I feel connected to people from a thousand years ago and a thousand years in the future now. I’m not afraid of a doctor entering the room with a somber face. Everything is okay as it is.