Derealization due to Weed
Last year around this time i got high for the very first time with some freinds. I had tried it before but only in “pen’s” and would do a very minimal amount so i would barely feel anything. But i had decided to try gummies and have a pen at the same time. I had felt great until we got back to my freinds cottage and i started to trip out. I felt like i was seeing my world from a 3rd person perspective. I also had thoughts of “what’s a human” and “what am i doing here” etc. I couldn’t even function.
The day after i started to experience feeling like i wasn’t even real. I wish i never did it cause i haven’t been the same since. It’s also like i had finally been woken up in a sense, i finally realized that i am genuinely living a life and my brain hasn’t turned off since.
It’s been over a year now and i still don’t feel real. At social gatherings i get lost in thought, feeling like i have to do something in order to feel real but nothing helps. It also keeps me up at night, the thought of not knowing why i am here. I can sometimes try and not have anxiety or these thoughts but it doesn’t last for long.
I am wondering if anyone has any tips on how to deal/cope with derealization. I also haven’t seen a doctor for how i am feeling so i might just be self diagnosing.