Mentally checked out
Two years since marriage. I had posted in here a couple of months ago somewhere closer to winters.
We have had a single intimate encounter ever since which we both agreed was a step towards something better. But the regular day to day chemistry never really improved.
I thought Id give it time. Her job has changed for better and so has our home. At this point I am no longer worried if she is talking to someone or is maintaining contact someplace else.
24 months and I dont know her fantasies and she never cared enough to talk about mine. Our relationship had its downs but never that bad to have this abnormal bottlenecks over casual intimate conversations ever.
A slight suggestion makes her crestfallen all of the sudden. I am not that bad of a looker and do my best to provide for her. I have literally adjusted my life around her even while working with a blade over my head with all these AI layoffs.
I have tried to be mature about her past but it cant be at the expense of the life that I had dreamed of being a kid. She was my first serious relationship that led to a marriage and there is literally nothing stopping me from emotionally separating out.
I am done. I refuse to believe that a 27 year old woman cant have a healthy sexual relationship with her married husband. I have tried to understand her for about 30 months but I am done.
I am being told that I am being immature in my expectations of having a healthy sex life. I am 31 and I have a whole life ahead of me. Every bone of my body has resisted the urge to respond to women who continue to hit on me.
She knows this and judges me for saying this earlier in a post I shared earlier in this sub. Yes she checks me account if I am okay and posting something in this sub. If she is so concerned she would’ve been an active participant in what we have to work on but even a suggestive conversation gets deflected right next second.
I dont expect her to cook for me regularly she does it on her own accord when she feels like it but I guess Ill just look for it outside after I break this off clean. She doesn’t care and apparently I dont too now.
I am done.