Need meta man
Warning: talking about genitals and nsfw tmi shit
I’m also just not really looking for advice, this is mostly about dysphoria venting.
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I’m getting real sick and tired of dealing with my genitals. I need at least vaginectomy so I don’t have to get wet or deal with atrophy stuff ever again. It just feels insanely gross having my bits, and it’s worse so whenever I have atrophy symptoms cause I’m just even more aware of what’s going on down there.
I’m actually just kind of done waiting it out. I was so unsure of whether I wanted to get bottom surgery (meta) because I was afraid of what would be said with my family and just how long the process can be, but I rather have a tiny functionless dick than my natal genitals. It’s funny too, cause I like bottoming, but bottoming with my bits rather than my ass is just a nightmare, I can never finish and I just feel gross. Why ass? No problem, I can finish sm faster and I feel euphoric. Anything below my tdick and above my ass is just gross, a complete turn off.
I’m thinking tomorrow I’ll make a call with a clinic and see if I can at least get a consult. Cause I’m getting sick of all this and if I don’t do anything now what difference will it make? I’ll just be as sad as I am now but older and more bitter that I didn’t do anything sooner.