u/Silly_Cherry7934

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I WAVY LIKE SELENA GOMEZ

Bro no its not, and then they start debating me, it used to be so annoying to deal with these people bro.. I just started cutting them off race mode style because leave me alone bro..

And its these same annoying people that say "you like working in a supermarket huh, keeping the aisles clean.." "hahahaha" (wtf?) No bro I dont care about that supermarket my OCD doesnt latch onto that because I dont careeeeeeeeeeeeee broooooooooooo!

Cant even dance anymore because youre autistic if you dance appearantly??

shout out to people with autism #swag (but bro come on this has to stop now, and I wouldnt even care if I turned out to be autistic)

bro bro bro bro bro bro bro

This happens to me in different forms, it can be any time period, but never now. And it is COMPLETELY centered around music. I have atleast 6+ of these different "era narratives", and I can quickly switch between them now, because I dont compulsively force myself to listen to specific genres anymore to "match" the era narrative. So I can just go listen to Bossa Nova & Witch House & Shoegaze in the same day.

(I dont combine them into the same playlist, I cant stand that personally) (All very specifically curated)

Example:

I start listening to music from an era, think Cloud Rap & Chillwave from 2012. (Cause I love that fr)

Then I curate an entire view around this vibe. It then becomes a narrative in my life, that effects my view of the world. I need to make everything like that vibe, as if Im living some sort of special time/era, part of something bigger or fairytale. Im literally trying to live in 2009 while being in 2026 and OCD explodes it into a narrative I have to follow instead of just a fun vibe to be in. (sometimes its just this chill vibe, but bro..) I believe this is something my brain does to give me an anchor in life, but it sucks sometimes & Im not even gonna lie its fun at times when I feel like Im making it "come true".

This also involves placing expectations on my friends and having them be certain parts of this narrative, giving them roles. (Let them be dawg)

Even though I never try to actually control them, my mind does become "not satisfied" when they divert, but then after I believe its just okay because theyre themselves.

I have no idea WTF this is but it gives me an anchor in life when I lack purpose. Do I just want to be 2012 Black'Kray (Artist, he got hella swag) or something??

Im pretty sure I started doing this to get rid of my real life romantic obsessions about people. A big part of this was actually built on "dream girl" or "the one".

& bro I dont even know why Im writing this, its just intresting fr.

And there are also visions I have, or 3d renderings of places Ive been, associated with 2010 in my mind. Like my childhood home.

Does anyone experience this or no?

Thank u!