Feeling empty after pp appt
Yesterday my daughter would have been 2 months old. Today I had my 8 weeks pp appointment and I was really scared I would hear some bad news again. It was really difficult and emotional to walk through the same corridor where I last held my daughter in my arms, and sit in the same waiting room as during my pregnancy. During the appointment everything went as well as possible in this grim situation. I had a c section and the doctor said we could start TTC 6-12 months pp. But when I got home, I was struck by this really deep feeling of emptiness and sorrow. This was the last doctor's visit related to my first ever pregnancy and my daughter, and now I feel like this chapter of my life is over. Other people move forward with their lives and expect me to do the same. I can't imagine not TTC again, but also thinking about going through this again scares the living shit out of me. Idk if anyone can relate, but I just had to get these thoughts out of my head.