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When Ad first put on the basil green long-sleeves shirt and the black skinny jeans, it awakened a deep sense of completeness and a newly found joy. The young Epicface knew that if his dad or his siblings found out about it then they might think of him as being weird and might even kick him out of the house. Out of fear he decided to hide the clothes inside of a black case inside of his closet. He quickly put on his regular grey shirt and short blue short and bright red Epic Face's mask. For some reason, he couldn't stop thinking about how excited he felt when he was dressing up as FemAd. The young Epicface shook his head, his dark brown hair following along the rotation of his head in an attempt to act like it wasn't a big deal. He thought that there no way that he is actually into something as "weird" as dressing up as a girl so in a attempt to prove to himself that he isn't a "sissy" he decided to bully his younger brother as a way to present himself as this big scary guy instead of a lost and confused teen who is just trying to find out about their identity. Ad went outside of his room and headed towards the living room to hide behind the sofa, waiting for the perfect moment to strike and to scare his younger brother. Baka walks into the room with his gold-colored Monika plush before falling to the ground the moment he sees Ad jump out from behind the sofa. Baka looked at Ad and instead of being scared like how he usually would be, he seems to look confused almost like he knew that Ad is putting on an act. The older teen rolled his eyes before storming off into his room. He looked around his room and found a comic that his friend, Jeremy left behind. Ad took a closer look at the comic that his bonnie-masked friend left behind and found that it was a comic that he made himself that had a very detailed drawing of him and his friends hanging out. Ad blushes the moment he saw the drawing, he turned his head in an attempt to act like it was just a childish creation rather than something important. A thought came rushing to the young Epicface's brain as he pondered about perhaps it isn't a childish creation and that he shouldn't be scared to express himself just like how Jeremy expressed his friendship through the drawing. Ad nervously walked towards the closet, he took a deep breath before opening up the closet. He took out a black case and opened it to reveal the basil-colored long sleeves shirt and the black skinny jeans. Ad looks around to make sure that nobody is looking as he slowly opened up his door to visit his mother's room. His parents were always gone with his father always being at Monika or doing his weird research on some silly paranormal stuff and his mother working in another state. The young Epicface sneaked into his mother's room to steal a bar of lipstick and other make-up items and even a few hair extensions. After he got what he needed, he quickly ran back into his room before closing the door. Ad removed the clothes that he was wearing before putting on the feminine, soft and awfully pleasant clothings.And a dark brown hair extension Ad found that used to be owned by his aunt but she accidentally left it at the Epicface's household. He then applied a cute pink lipstick against his lips, then he used foundation and then he used mascara and blush. The young Epicface rushed over to his bedside to pick up a small mirror to inspect his new appearance. He gasped as he found a young woman with long dark eyelashes, rosy cheeks, and long dark brown hair wearing a simple but cute green shirt and black skinny jeans. Ad looks closer to the mirror, completely amazed by how cute he looked but more importantly how it made him feel more complete, almost like this is a hidden part of himself that he never knew about. Suddenly, Michaek heard the sound of a door knob being turned, his eyes widened in shock as he turned around to see his younger brother, Baka staring at him. The small child threw his gold Monika plush at what he assumed was an unfamiliar woman that was inside of his brother's room. Baka ran up to Ad before punching him in the abdomen while demanding to know what he does to his older brother and how despite how much Ad bullied him, he does deeply care about him. None of Baka's punches were fatal due to his young age so it was more like being hitted by a pillow. Ad flicks Baka's forehead with his fingers before telling him that it's him. Baka stares at Ad in shock as he stares at his older brother who is dressed up as a girl. Instead of laughing or being grossed out by it, Baka tilted his head in a innocent manner before asking his brother on why he is acting so afraid for some reason. Ad told Baka that if their dad found out about this, then he wouldn't think of Ad as a man. Baka sighs as he placed his small hands over his older brother's hands before staring deeply into his eyes and asking if he sees himself as a man. Ad pulls back from the grip of his younger brother, he instantly placed a hand on the back of his neck. He told Baka that he feel more like himself when he dress up as a girl and how when he dress up like this, he feels like a girl both internally and externally. Ad dropped down to the floor as he rests his arm over his knees. "You probably think I'm a weirdo instead of the scary monster that I usually portrayed myself as...." Baka grabbed onto his older brother's hands and said "I don't care if you feel like you want to be a girl, as long as you are happy and able to smile a big happy smile every day then, that's fine!" Ad stared at the small boy in a mixture of shock, confusion and warmth. Ad: "W-what about all those times that I bullied you...?" Baka: "I still remember those memories but that doesn't mean that I hate you. What you did was pretty rude and it made me feels weak and pathetic." Ad: "Then, why are you trying to comfort me?" Baka: "Because....I don't want to make you feel the same way that I did. I want you to grow into a kinder and loving sibling who isn't afraid to show their true colors." Baka lifted up his hand as a way to tell his brother to get up. Ad smirked before grabbing a hold of his younger brother's hand to get back up. Ad: "So....What's now?" Baka: "Papa will be gone at work for the whole day so I thought that since he is too busy to get food, we could make dinner together." Ad's eyes widened in shock as he flashed a small grin as a way to say yes. Baka instantly grabbed onto Ad's hand to lead him to the kitchen before taking out bread flour, yeast, sugar, honey and water. Ad: "We are going to make bread?" Baka: "Of course! You will work on the kneading and baking while I work on preparing the bread first! Ad's hand instinctively patted Baka's soft hair before flashing a warm smile, maybe things won't be so bad after all. Ad knew that things will be tough going forward, especially with his identity but he is going to keep on fighting and improving himself until he works up the courage to be his true self.

This is the reason my life turned out the way it did. I need someone to know. I need someone to believe me.. Please believe me.

It started when I was 11, it was 1998 and I heard there was a circus in town... well it was more like a carnival but it was marketed as a circus.. After a long day at school, I decided to head down to where the circus was apparently being set up.

It wasn't that far from my house, In my town there was a walking trail called "Lockhart Way" I think it was named after George Claude Lockhart, Midway through Lockhart Way is a big old clearing and it's usually the place where stuff like fairs and markets would be open because no one exactly owned it.. Lockhart Way leads to a bigger town and it is in the exact spot in between the towns' lands so theres a whole question of who exactly owns it.

I got to the clearing and it looks like the circus had already opened, I saw handfuls of kids and grown ups walking around, eating the food, playing games, and whatever families do on a day out to the circus. I saw one of them booths where you have to throw a ball at a stack of cups and you can win a prize if you knock all the cups down, I've played a few of those games before so I wanted to give it a test.

I walked up to the booth where a tall man was standing, he was wearing a black shirt with short sleeves, yellow pants with suspenders, and a strange yellow mask that had a smiley face on it. "Come on kid, give it your best shot!" The man said, gleaming with happiness, "Wait, do I not have to pay?" I said to the man, I was a little shocked because usually these carnivals try to stack up as much money as possible, "No ya silly goose!" The man replied "Everything is free at The Circus Of The Earth!" "Circus Of The Earth...?" I questioned, I didn't see a sign outside so I didn't know there was a whole brand for this place. "That's right! Now give it your best shot!" The man quickly responded almost as if he was trying to quickly change the subject.

I picked up the first ball and I threw it. It knocked over 2 out of the 6 cups on the first stack. When grabbing the second ball, I turned my attention to the second stack of cups. I carefully lifted my arm up and threw, it knocked over all of the cups in one swoop. "Great job little buddy!" The man happily said as he patted me on the head. He reached over onto a shelf and pulled off a bright yellow teddy bear with a smile and a big blue nose. "There ya go! This little fellas name is Sparkle! Look after him very very well!.." The man said as he waved me goodbye.

As I was walking away with my... "Sparkle" bear, I thought it was weird that the employee had to dress up and act happy, but maybe that's just the theme here. I looked over and I saw one of my friends from school, Jess, She was wearing a white shirt with a black skirt, her orange hair was in a ponytail and she was holding some cotton candy. When she saw me she walked over and looked me up and down before talking. "Hey um... I'm sorry I forgot your name, I know your in my class though" She said. "Oh yeah, Um.. my name is Mathew!" I said, raising a hand for a handshake. "Your really the type of guy to shake someone's hand to introduce yourself?" She said with an annoyed tone. "Oh I'm sorry, I just thought it would be polite." I said, trying to calm the situation down. "Um... Alright" She said right before she walked off, She never did shake my hand...

I watched her enter a large circus tent in the center of the area. I decided to check out what's inside because the rest of the place seemed boring. I walked towards the tent and started to enter, The only thing I could see inside was slight movement. I walked in and I realized it was some sort of mirror maze, The tent looked almost completely different on the inside.. I started going through the maze until I encountered... the first of many strange people at this circus... It was tall man, he had pale almost completely white skin, he had messy red makeup, there was red eyeshadow around the bottom of his eyes, he was wearing a red and yellow clown costume with a big red wig and orange clown nose. I jumped slightly when I saw him. "Are you lost" he said in a deep raspy voice. "I think so.." I said, not completely sure if I should trust him. "Follow me" He said, he then turned around and walked further into the maze... with nothing else to do just sitting there I decided to follow him.

I followed The Clown to a door within the maze. He went through the door and I followed, this is the point where I started to think "There's no way this can all fit in the tent I saw outside". I entered the room and now we were in a small show room. There was a stage against the wall surrounded by a curtain and in front of it were rows of chairs with other kids sitting in them. I assumed I'd see Jess but she wasn't there.. "Sit and wait for the show." The Clown said. I walked over to a chair next to another boy around my age, he was wearing a green shirt with blue accents and a blue logo that resembled the silhouette of a horse with the words "I'm so hungry I could eat a horse!" in a lighter shade of blue under the horse.

I sat down and started waiting. After a few minutes someone stepped out from behind the curtain, It was a man wearing a red ringmaster uniform with a big purple bowtie.. he was wearing a red facemask with a toothy smile on it, and inventors goggles with what looked like green lenses. "Hello Kids! And how are we today?" The man said. a few kids said "Ok" or "Good" back but not a lot of them. "You can call me Ringmaster Smiles! or just The Ringmaster!" he giggled. "Now kids... I've been looking everywhere for my good pal Sparkle! Have ya seen him? Have ya?" The kids shook their heads. "Well maybe... He's right... there!" He pointed over to me and my Sparkle Teddy Bear. "How about you come up young man.." I nervously got up and walked onto the stage and turned to the audience. "What's your name, new pal?" The Ringmaster said, putting his hands on my shoulders and bending down to get to my level. "Matt... Sir... Mathew..." I said nervously. "Looks like you got my buddy Sparkle... can I-" He suddenly reached down to grab my bear and I moved it away. "Looks like your playing hard to get, buddy" he said while giggling.

I was beginning to get weirded out so I asked him if I could sit back down. "Not until you give me... my buddy back.. b- buddy." He said, his voice cracking slightly. "I actually think my parents might be worried about me... I need to go home" I said, trying to escape the situation. I walked off the stage and went towards the door that led me here. The Clown stepped in front of me, blocking my escape. "Not leaving yet." The Clown muttered, I turned around and the Ringmaster was approaching me... and he was holding something... Then... then...

I found myself back in The Mirror Maze.. I heard laughing all around me, The Clown stepped out from behind a mirror. "You are a party-pooper, you ruin Ringmaster's fun games" he said. "Please... I just want to go home" I pleaded. "You will stay here, with our family" he started approaching me. "No.. No.. No.. No.. No.. No.. " I muttered under my breath. The Clown grabbed me and smashed my head against the floor, I felt my nose break and blood start coming out of my left nostril. I felt something heavy being held over my head before I blacked out again.

When I woke up. I was in a concrete room with white tiled flooring. I slowly stood up and I realized I was in a cell of some sort. I saw a reinforced iron door with a small window on it. I looked out and saw other cells lining the wall in front of my cell. I realized that my door was unlocked so I slowly stepped out. I looked around and saw that all of the cells were empty except for 2. one with a sign that said "Mascot" and another that said "Freakshow".

I walked over to The Mascot cell and I looked in. I saw someone wearing a big mascot costume of The Sparkle Bear sitting on the floor. "Hello..?" I whispered to The Mascot. "H- Hello?" They said, judging by the voice I could tell it was a girl under that suit. She stood up and walked over to the door. "Please help.. I haven't seem my daughter in so long... He took her from me.. my sweet angel" She said while sobbing slightly. "I'm not sure how to open the door but when I get out of here I will call for help-" I said, trying to calm her down before I was cut off. "There is not escape" it was a voice coming from The Freakshow cell, I looked in and I saw a shirtless man with sickly tainted green skin, he was very very skinny and tall, and his fingers were deformed. "What is happening here?" I asked. "That... Ringmaster fellow... He and his crew go all across the world trying to create the perfect family of freaks and weirdos... And for some reason I'm given the title of the freak to one day show the world... whatever he says I can't remember.." The Freakshow said in a tired tone. "When was the last time you saw the sun?" I asked The Freakshow. "725 Days... I've been keeping track.." The Freak show said. "Don't worry guys, I'll find help!" I said as I started to make my exit.

I walked over to a door different from the others and I opened it. I made my way up the stairs until I found myself back in the showroom, now empty... except for the fact there was a big stain of blood smeared across the wall of course, but I couldn't focus on that right now. I exited the showroom and entered the Mirror Maze. At this point I was so sick of this I just started breaking and pushing over mirrors until I eventually found the exit.

I stood in front of the exit.. I was a little nervous to be honest.. What if those... freaks follow me back to my home... or... Ugh... I just need to go get help, come back, and free all of the trapped people. I open the door and I step out to be greeted with... the sun rising... I look around and there's no... people... no signs there was a carnival at all! well except the circus tent... I turned around and the tent and the door I just came out of were no where to be seen. Everything had vanished. Without a trace.

Even after such a long time the event haunts me to my core. I don't know what The Ringmaster's goal was.. or what he did with the kids... but after learning that The Circus Of The Earth is a travelling circus and could realistically be anywhere in the world... My question to you is... Have you been to The Circus Of The Earth? Please... I need my closure...

TheAdverse

This is the reason my life turned out the way it did. I need someone to know. I need someone to believe me.. Please believe me.

It started when I was 11, it was 1998 and I heard there was a circus in town... well it was more like a carnival but it was marketed as a circus.. After a long day at school, I decided to head down to where the circus was apparently being set up.

It wasn't that far from my house, In my town there was a walking trail called "Lockhart Way" I think it was named after George Claude Lockhart, Midway through Lockhart Way is a big old clearing and it's usually the place where stuff like fairs and markets would be open because no one exactly owned it.. Lockhart Way leads to a bigger town and it is in the exact spot in between the towns' lands so theres a whole question of who exactly owns it.

I got to the clearing and it looks like the circus had already opened, I saw handfuls of kids and grown ups walking around, eating the food, playing games, and whatever families do on a day out to the circus. I saw one of them booths where you have to throw a ball at a stack of cups and you can win a prize if you knock all the cups down, I've played a few of those games before so I wanted to give it a test.

I walked up to the booth where a tall man was standing, he was wearing a black shirt with short sleeves, yellow pants with suspenders, and a strange yellow mask that had a smiley face on it. "Come on kid, give it your best shot!" The man said, gleaming with happiness, "Wait, do I not have to pay?" I said to the man, I was a little shocked because usually these carnivals try to stack up as much money as possible, "No ya silly goose!" The man replied "Everything is free at The Circus Of The Earth!" "Circus Of The Earth...?" I questioned, I didn't see a sign outside so I didn't know there was a whole brand for this place. "That's right! Now give it your best shot!" The man quickly responded almost as if he was trying to quickly change the subject.

I picked up the first ball and I threw it. It knocked over 2 out of the 6 cups on the first stack. When grabbing the second ball, I turned my attention to the second stack of cups. I carefully lifted my arm up and threw, it knocked over all of the cups in one swoop. "Great job little buddy!" The man happily said as he patted me on the head. He reached over onto a shelf and pulled off a bright yellow teddy bear with a smile and a big blue nose. "There ya go! This little fellas name is Sparkle! Look after him very very well!.." The man said as he waved me goodbye.

As I was walking away with my... "Sparkle" bear, I thought it was weird that the employee had to dress up and act happy, but maybe that's just the theme here. I looked over and I saw one of my friends from school, Jess, She was wearing a white shirt with a black skirt, her orange hair was in a ponytail and she was holding some cotton candy. When she saw me she walked over and looked me up and down before talking. "Hey um... I'm sorry I forgot your name, I know your in my class though" She said. "Oh yeah, Um.. my name is Mathew!" I said, raising a hand for a handshake. "Your really the type of guy to shake someone's hand to introduce yourself?" She said with an annoyed tone. "Oh I'm sorry, I just thought it would be polite." I said, trying to calm the situation down. "Um... Alright" She said right before she walked off, She never did shake my hand...

I watched her enter a large circus tent in the center of the area. I decided to check out what's inside because the rest of the place seemed boring. I walked towards the tent and started to enter, The only thing I could see inside was slight movement. I walked in and I realized it was some sort of mirror maze, The tent looked almost completely different on the inside.. I started going through the maze until I encountered... the first of many strange people at this circus... It was tall man, he had pale almost completely white skin, he had messy red makeup, there was red eyeshadow around the bottom of his eyes, he was wearing a red and yellow clown costume with a big red wig and orange clown nose. I jumped slightly when I saw him. "Are you lost" he said in a deep raspy voice. "I think so.." I said, not completely sure if I should trust him. "Follow me" He said, he then turned around and walked further into the maze... with nothing else to do just sitting there I decided to follow him.

I followed The Clown to a door within the maze. He went through the door and I followed, this is the point where I started to think "There's no way this can all fit in the tent I saw outside". I entered the room and now we were in a small show room. There was a stage against the wall surrounded by a curtain and in front of it were rows of chairs with other kids sitting in them. I assumed I'd see Jess but she wasn't there.. "Sit and wait for the show." The Clown said. I walked over to a chair next to another boy around my age, he was wearing a green shirt with blue accents and a blue logo that resembled the silhouette of a horse with the words "I'm so hungry I could eat a horse!" in a lighter shade of blue under the horse.

I sat down and started waiting. After a few minutes someone stepped out from behind the curtain, It was a man wearing a red ringmaster uniform with a big purple bowtie.. he was wearing a red facemask with a toothy smile on it, and inventors goggles with what looked like green lenses. "Hello Kids! And how are we today?" The man said. a few kids said "Ok" or "Good" back but not a lot of them. "You can call me Ringmaster Smiles! or just The Ringmaster!" he giggled. "Now kids... I've been looking everywhere for my good pal Sparkle! Have ya seen him? Have ya?" The kids shook their heads. "Well maybe... He's right... there!" He pointed over to me and my Sparkle Teddy Bear. "How about you come up young man.." I nervously got up and walked onto the stage and turned to the audience. "What's your name, new pal?" The Ringmaster said, putting his hands on my shoulders and bending down to get to my level. "Matt... Sir... Mathew..." I said nervously. "Looks like you got my buddy Sparkle... can I-" He suddenly reached down to grab my bear and I moved it away. "Looks like your playing hard to get, buddy" he said while giggling.

I was beginning to get weirded out so I asked him if I could sit back down. "Not until you give me... my buddy back.. b- buddy." He said, his voice cracking slightly. "I actually think my parents might be worried about me... I need to go home" I said, trying to escape the situation. I walked off the stage and went towards the door that led me here. The Clown stepped in front of me, blocking my escape. "Not leaving yet." The Clown muttered, I turned around and the Ringmaster was approaching me... and he was holding something... Then... then...

I found myself back in The Mirror Maze.. I heard laughing all around me, The Clown stepped out from behind a mirror. "You are a party-pooper, you ruin Ringmaster's fun games" he said. "Please... I just want to go home" I pleaded. "You will stay here, with our family" he started approaching me. "No.. No.. No.. No.. No.. No.. " I muttered under my breath. The Clown grabbed me and smashed my head against the floor, I felt my nose break and blood start coming out of my left nostril. I felt something heavy being held over my head before I blacked out again.

When I woke up. I was in a concrete room with white tiled flooring. I slowly stood up and I realized I was in a cell of some sort. I saw a reinforced iron door with a small window on it. I looked out and saw other cells lining the wall in front of my cell. I realized that my door was unlocked so I slowly stepped out. I looked around and saw that all of the cells were empty except for 2. one with a sign that said "Mascot" and another that said "Freakshow".

I walked over to The Mascot cell and I looked in. I saw someone wearing a big mascot costume of The Sparkle Bear sitting on the floor. "Hello..?" I whispered to The Mascot. "H- Hello?" They said, judging by the voice I could tell it was a girl under that suit. She stood up and walked over to the door. "Please help.. I haven't seem my daughter in so long... He took her from me.. my sweet angel" She said while sobbing slightly. "I'm not sure how to open the door but when I get out of here I will call for help-" I said, trying to calm her down before I was cut off. "There is not escape" it was a voice coming from The Freakshow cell, I looked in and I saw a shirtless man with sickly tainted green skin, he was very very skinny and tall, and his fingers were deformed. "What is happening here?" I asked. "That... Ringmaster fellow... He and his crew go all across the world trying to create the perfect family of freaks and weirdos... And for some reason I'm given the title of the freak to one day show the world... whatever he says I can't remember.." The Freakshow said in a tired tone. "When was the last time you saw the sun?" I asked The Freakshow. "725 Days... I've been keeping track.." The Freak show said. "Don't worry guys, I'll find help!" I said as I started to make my exit.

I walked over to a door different from the others and I opened it. I made my way up the stairs until I found myself back in the showroom, now empty... except for the fact there was a big stain of blood smeared across the wall of course, but I couldn't focus on that right now. I exited the showroom and entered the Mirror Maze. At this point I was so sick of this I just started breaking and pushing over mirrors until I eventually found the exit.

I stood in front of the exit.. I was a little nervous to be honest.. What if those... freaks follow me back to my home... or... Ugh... I just need to go get help, come back, and free all of the trapped people. I open the door and I step out to be greeted with... the sun rising... I look around and there's no... people... no signs there was a carnival at all! well except the circus tent... I turned around and the tent and the door I just came out of were no where to be seen. Everything had vanished. Without a trace.

Even after such a long time the event haunts me to my core. I don't know what The Ringmaster's goal was.. or what he did with the kids... but after learning that The Circus Of The Earth is a travelling circus and could realistically be anywhere in the world... My question to you is... Have you been to The Circus Of The Earth? Please... I need my closure...