Advice - Kundalini insomnia, sacral chakra
Hello, first time poster and happy to join the community :) Thank you all for being around!
I experienced a spontaneous kundalini awakening about 3-4 years ago, though thinking back on it I believe there were hints that something was coming earlier... For example in childhood pictures I sit in full lotus doing mudras - and there seems to be no good (ordinary) explanation as to why I would be doing this in my typically secular family...
I am not currently initiated into any particular wisdom-tradition and for the first few years I had trouble understanding what was going on (I had no idea that kundalini was a thing). One of the first visions I had was of a burning Buddha... After this my heart (heart chakra?) really began pounding, I pretty much lost control of my nervous system, mostly in connections to solar flares and nn-emf sensitivity, this caused me a lot of insomnia and heat rashes.
Well many things have happened on the way, including various more or less serious crisis... Slowly I have been coming to terms with the process mostly through trial and error, self-dialogue/contemplation, and reading (a little bit of re-inventing the wheel as you call it here)... During this time I started hatha yoga, meditation practices, asking for (divine) help, and generally began opening up and being more compassionate and understanding. I have worked a lot on replacing bad habits and negative spiraling thought-patterns and so on through journaling (let us call it a kind of psychology treatment, or self-dialogue/contemplation as the yogis call it).
Recently I returned from a journey abroad, and I felt a kind of electric stirring in the heart area, and since then my heart has been nice and calm - almost as if some healing had happened :)
One thing I still struggle with is insomnia, and I cannot really figure out why or how. I have a very hard time with this, I was always quite sensitive and a light/difficult sleeper but I find going days or sometimes weeks without almost any sleep is very tough... There could of course be many factors influencing this. However, one good thing that has come out of it is that this has set me to practice towards yoga nidra, but I am only making small steps.
Currently, it seems that the Kundalini energy circulates a lot in the sacral area though I am unsure how this relates to insomnia - I think I might have some kind of trauma stored in this area that is slowly being released. Occasionally I find I get some intrusive thoughts, I am not sure from where they come, but they might speak in derogatory terms.
I do a lot of basic grounding practices, doing manual work outdoors, spending time in nature, time with family and animals, yoga nidra, meditation though more moderate now... And from r/kundalini I also found the WLP practice.
Any ideas as to how can I find my next step? It seems I could benefit from some kind of chakra work, but I am unsure how to begin or where to seek? Also, any ideas for what could be causing such persistent insomnia?
Thank you for all your help