Surgery Date & Cold feet
I just got my surgery date today. I've been doing really well in the program. HW:260 CW:243. Surgery is scheduled for 9/15.
I was excited to do this especially because after years of food related trauma. I've addressed the issue and found something that works for me. But now... I'm nervous.
I'm scared about a catheter? Do they put catheters in? I'm scared about anesthesia. I've been out under 2x before but they were both for emergency situations while pregnant. I'm actually terrified. The date is fast approaching but now I'm getting cold feet. I feel a little pit in my stomach that something awful is going to happen. I don't want to be but under and never wake up again. I have my kiddo and husband waiting on me.
I'm definitely psyching myself out. Everything is hitting at once. Thoughts like. Yeah I'm doing fine now, but.. the what ifs.
Literally started today when they gave me my surgery date.
Does anyone else have fears like this? Any regrets? What is the death ratio for a surgery like this? Complication percentage?